Go Play in Traffic!

Go Play in Traffic!

Well, I just had my heart ripped out for the UMPTEENTH time in my life. THIS one was the worst yet. I was told he wanted to "switch" to friendship because he was GAY. Now, I knew he was BI, but because of MY unconditional acceptance of him, he could finally be who he really was and come out of the closet. LOVELY! But he wants to be Best friends with me still. See, this one is one of those stories you read about and don't expect to ever happen to you. He was my best friend, my buddy, partner in crime, the best damn lover I ever had, and by far the most gorgeous man I ever dated. AND YOU ARE GAY? Feels like a slap in the face. I mean, if this is who you really are, then by all means, go do it and BE YOU. But to be broken up with because he is gay now is just heart wrenching. How does a girl pick up the pieces after this? How can I ever let someone in again? I trusted him unconditionally, told him things I never told another living soul, and now I feel so betrayed. Please don't tell me in time I will feel better, or that I will find someone else, and all that cliche' CRAP, I don't want to hear it.

I have been trying to maintain a friendship with him and it leaves me crying almost every time I see him. Is this worth saving or should I call him a selfish f*ck and move on? When you are so ensconsed in his family that his SON even loves you, it is not the easiest thing to bolt...