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16 Linkin Park Song Lyrics That Helped Me Battle My Anxiety And Depression

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Some people who listen to music for the beats and melody of a song. Some people listen for the lyrics and don't care as much for the beat or sound. For me, lyrics of songs I like or listen to usually represent how I felt or how I am feeling about situations throughout my life.

Linkin Park songs have greatly affected my life in a positive way, even though many of their lyrics are sad or, as some would say, "depressing". To me, their lyrics are as real as it can get.

I suffer from depression and anxiety. My highs are really high but my lows are as low as you can get without taking your life. Since Linkin Park came out with their first album, their lyrics have spoken to me in so many ways. And here is how their lyrics saved my life.

These are my own interpretations of these Linkin Park lyrics in relation to my life (they are in no specific order):

1. "When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed." Leave Out All The Rest 

I've always wanted to serve whatever my purpose was in this world. I want to be remembered for some of the good things I've done in my life. Everyone will make mistakes and do the wrong thing one time or another in life, but hopefully the good will outweigh that and let me leave behind a reason to be missed and remembered.

I always tell those in my life that all I want is to be someone they learn one thing from. I don't care what that one thing is but I want to be remembered like this: "She changed my life because..."

2."Sometimes solutions aren't so simple. Sometimes goodbye is the only way." Shadow Of The Day

These lyrics have helped me realize that some friendships and relationships aren't destined to be and to stop holding on to something that is already gone. During those times, it's best to say goodbye because not everything in life is simple or has a simple solution. Such is life.

3. "I see pain, I see need. I see liars and thieves abuse power with greed." No More Sorrow 

These lyrics apply to so many things in my life. For one, it helps me understand the world for the most part and how it is filled with so many selfish and self-absorbed people. People who are out for themselves and don't stop to think about how their actions or behaviors will affect others.

It also makes me think of the government. So many government officials abuse their power for their own benefit, rather than the people.

4. "I'm holding on, why is everything so heavy? Holding on, so much more than I can carry. I keep dragging around what's bringing me down. If I just let go, I'd be set free." Heavy

These lyrics are so powerful and real. I've had several suicide attempts and severe bouts of depression where I've felt if I just let leave this world, I would be set free from the prison cell my depression holds me in.

I find it difficult to have normal friendships and relationships because of my depression and anxiety. I carry it with me everywhere I go so it's with me when I meet people. It's like I'm holding the weight of the world on my shoulders and I'm not sure I can hold it much longer.

5. "Something has been taken from deep inside of me. A secret I've kept locked away, no one else can see. Wounds go so deep they never show, they never go away... I would take all my shame to the grave... Pretending I don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change..." Easier To Run

These lyrics helped me normalize and validate my feelings after I was physically abused by an ex-boyfriend. I felt so ashamed and it was much easier to pretend I was okay than actually work through it and change my perceptions about the abuse.

Many people who are abused have feelings of worthlessness and have scars they hide from others. It's a scary thing to reveal my physical abuse with people because of the shame and sense of worthlessness I feel because it happened.

6. "I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real. I wanna find something I've wanted all along. Somewhere I belong." Somewhere I Belong 

I've always felt like an outcast ever since I was a kid. I have always been the "black sheep" and never conforming to what society believes is acceptable. At times, I just wish I could be myself and feel as though I belonged without having to hide certain parts of myself.

7. "Watched the time go right out the window. Trying to hold on, didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go. I kept everything inside and even though I've tried, it all fell apart. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time." In The End 

These lyrics helped me through so many different situations when I thought I wasted my time on friendships, relationships, and people in general. They also helped me realize that the clock doesn't stop for me and to make sure each minute I make the most of it while I'm alive. This entire song is very powerful. I highly recommend it if you haven't already heard it.

8. "Your lips say that you love. Your eyes say that you hate... So, I... I won't be the one, be the one to leave this, in pieces."  In Pieces 

This helps me remember that people can say anything they want to but their actions and nonverbal behaviors mean much more than words. Also, I am a person who needs closure from situations and relationships. Even if it is a simple "goodbye", I need it in order for me to move on with my life. I do not like to leave anything up in the air nor "in pieces."

9. "If they say who cares if one more light goes out? In a sky of a million stars, it flickers, flickers. Who cares if someone's time runs out? If a moment is all we are we're quicker, quicker. Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do." One More Light 

Some people are so self-absorbed and oblivious to those around them in this day and age. We have a tendency to forget to make sure those around us feel loved and cared for. These lyrics helped me become more aware of my feelings and surroundings and to let those I love know they are important to me in a world with so many people. 

I care about everyone to some extent in the world. I don't wish harm or negativity for anyone. I know, firsthand, what it's like to be at rock bottom with no one holding out their hand to try and help. I would not wish that on anyone, no matter who they are.

10. "And I know, I may end up failing too. But I know, you were just like me with someone disappointed in you."  Numb

These lyrics helped me to accept that no matter what expectations people may have of me, I am not perfect and I will make mistakes.

I absolutely hate when someone is disappointed in me but I've come to realize with this song that at one point or another in someone's life, everyone will know what it's like for someone to be disappointed in them. I've almost become numb to the disappointment of others and want to just be myself.

11. "So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies. So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside. So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long. All I know is that I want to feel like I'm not stepped on... I know I'll never trust a single thing you say. You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway. And all the lies have got you floating up above us all. But what goes up has got to fall..."  Hit The Floor

These are some powerful lyrics that have given so much meaning to situations in my life. I've walked on eggshells my entire life because I was afraid of what other people were going to think of me or judge me based on how I felt about something. I've come to terms with the fact that people are going to like me or not and I shouldn't hide myself or my feelings just because others don't agree.

The lyrics have also confirmed to me that lies always have a tendency to come back and bite you in the ass. So when they say "but what goes up has got to fall," it helped me understand that while someone may have lied to me or been mean to me, it will eventually catch up with them one way or another.

12. "Stuck in my head again. Feels like I'll never leave this place. There's no escape. I'm my own worst enemy." Given Up 

Honestly, I am in my head all the time and it's so hard to get out. My dad always told me I was my own worst critic and he was right. These lyrics validate me in times when I'm questioning everything because, in my head, I am overanalyzing situations, feelings, and behaviors of mine and others.

13. "You love the way I look at you. While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through. You take away if I give in. My life, my pride is broken." Points Of Authority 

I've been through many experiences where I was treated poorly and put through emotional abuse. It was like, I would show my vulnerability or parts of myself that I hold sacred and in return, it would be thrown back in my face as if those people had pleasure in causing someone else pain.

These experiences had left me utterly broken and feeling worthless. Any dignity or pride I had left, they took it and smashed it to the ground.

14. "I wanna run away, never say goodbye. I wanna know the truth, instead of wondering why. I wanna know the answers, no more lies. I wanna shut the door and open up my mind." Runaway 

A few relationships recently have ended out of nowhere and I'll get an occasional answer when they feel like responding, but overall, I have no idea what happened. I am seeking the truth about what happened so if I did something wrong or off, I can at least fix it or not bring it into future relationships. I feel like the entire relationship was complete bullsh*t. And all I am asking for is truth and closure. Is it that hard?

15. "I watch how the moon sits in the sky in the dark night. Shining with the light from the sky. And the sun doesn't give light to the moon assuming the moon's gonna owe it one."  A Place For My Head 

This perfectly says how I feel when people are out for themselves only. It's like you ask them for a favor and a year later, they'll ask you for it back. I do things for others out of the kindness of my heart and not because I want something in return.

16. "Everything you say to me, takes me one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break. I need a little room to breathe, cause I'm one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break." One Step Closer 

My most recent relationship was awful in hindsight. I was never supported or consoled in hard times and times of need. I look back now and realized had he not left me, I would have completely lost it. 

Linkin Park is so talented and the recent suicide of Chester Bennington is just tragic. The lyrics have helped many people through tough times. The validation and truth the lyrics bring to people is amazing especially when so many people experiencing something feel like they're all alone.

Chester Bennington is irreplaceable and will always be remembered. I hope to continue raising awareness for depression, addiction, and suicide. It is definitely needed.