Why My Ex-Boyfriend Asked Me To Sexually Humiliate Him For Having A Small Penis

I have to start by saying that I was deeply in love with this guy and he broke my heart into a million tiny little pieces in one single instant over something really stupid.

We were two weeks away from making the move to live together in a house that I'd already put an offer on — a house that I was not all that thrilled about, but that he convinced me to buy because he wanted the garage to store everything he needed for his racing hobby.

Just a few short hours after our relationship-ending dispute, he spent the night with some girl he'd met at a bar, then spent the entire month post-breakup trying to convince me he was still in love with me, all while he continued to see her.

We even talked about getting back together, until I finally found out about his 'indiscretion' somewhere around a month later.

Needless to say, his actions left me feeling betrayed and broken.

It became obvious to me that, in truth, he cared very little about me or my feelings.

So when he later decided to share with me about some of my personality traits that turn him on most, and when that led to him sharing further that he wanted me to not only dominate him sexually but also to take it so far as to completely humiliate him, let's just say I was totally on board.

His fantasy would give us both an opportunity to try something we felt certain we'd each enjoy — he could experiment with his interests in being a kinky submissive, and I could experience the satisfaction of saying the most humiliating things I could think of to him.

Win-win!

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Call me crazy, but what girl wouldn’t love to humiliate and demean the man who broke her heart?

I may have zero scientific data to back up my theory, but I choose to maintain that this is something I believe a large percentage of women would love to have the opportunity to do, and I was given the green light to move forward with reckless abandon.

Plus, I got the added bonus of doing this knowing that he was still seeing the person he cheated on me with (and yes, she knew about me) and it was gratifying to know he'd be doing the same to her.

I highly recommend that any woman with a strong personality try her hand at being a Femdom at least once.

I had no idea D/s was something I would be into until I happened to try it at this man's request. It was a total power trip — and that was SO fricking hot.

We began with simple things, like pegging and small penis humiliation (also known as 'SPH').

I started by giving him simple “punishments,” then later moved on to more intense things like orgasm denial and male chastity, and for me, the best part of the experience was humiliating him.

While the other things we tried were hot, dominating him via SPH was a truly emotional and exhilarating experience.

I told him how worthless he was, how his penis is too small to please me (or anyone else), and that he should feel lucky that I was even allowing him to please me in other ways.

I made him wear a strap-on and use that to please me instead of his own penis, and while he was doing it, I told him what a shame it was that he would never be able to please me with his own useless one.

I berated him about how half of the time he couldn’t even get an erection, and how even when he could, it was still too small and only lasted for all of 30 seconds maximum.

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Then I’d make him suck off the strap-on once he was done pleasing me with it, which gave the added benefit of emasculating him. He is a straight man, after all.

And just to be clear, he loved it all.

It’s not like I was forcing him to do anything he didn’t want to. He even agreed to allow me to capture the experience on video, although I never ended up taking him up on the offer.

My favorite “session” of all was when I wrote up a list of all of the terrible things he'd done to me and made him lay on his bed naked, bound, and blindfolded while confessing them to me, apologizing for each one, and then begging for my forgiveness — all as I paddled him and his manhood between confessions. That was such a rush.

If I’m completely honest, sometimes I still think about it when I touch myself.

Of course, putting on a strap-on and pegging a straight man is always a good bit of fun, as well.

And that goes double for doing it to the man who broke your heart. There's such an intense feeling of empowerment that comes from hearing a man moaning, writhing, and squirming in both pleasure and pain.

So to any other woman out there whose ex-boyfriend wants to hook up, I suggest you give him the option of being dominated by you as the only kind of post-breakup sex you will consider.

If he's agreeable, do it — and unleash the fury of all that anger and heartbreak he caused you.

Just don’t allow yourself to develop the illusion that things may still work out for the two of you in the long run.

Keep it simply about domination and sex. When I made that mistake, things took a gnarly turn for the worse.

But I promise that if you can handle doing it without bringing any of the emotional baggage along for the ride, you’ll have yourself a great time.  

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Carrie Budd is a writer with a passion for helping others. She finds great joy in empowering women to find the strength to forge ahead when all hope seems lost.