Mom, I Owe It To Myself To Forgive You

I pray that you can come to terms with the demons you yourself are facing, for your own sake.

Last updated on Jul 13, 2023

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By Theresa Faughnan

Dear Mom,

As you know, our relationship hasn’t been comfortable. It has had more than its fair share of fights, harsh words, and hurt feelings.

Indeed, there were happy moments filled with laughter; I don’t deny that. I believe our relationship was even more complicated because you were a single mom who always held two jobs. When your primary support system — my grandmother and godmother — died, you probably felt truly alone.


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I know that must have been hard. I also know that what I went through was hard and hurtful because you felt alone.

However, I have chosen to forgive you, learn from it, and carry on with my life. All while applying the lessons I’ve learned along the way.


It wasn’t until I moved away and started living with a significant other that I realized how our combative relationship affected my self-esteem and attitude toward confrontation.

I can still remember being in the car with you, arguing over something trivial, but soon the argument turned monumental and ended with lines such as, “You live your life, and I’ll live mine,” or, “I am still your mother, and you will respect me.”

Though I know I am not perfect, I now know that having an opinion different from someone else is not disrespectful. It’s proof that I’m a free-thinking individual.

I remember walking to my room and having to dodge an ashtray that came flying toward my head since you were having an explosive meltdown. Similarly, I remember the threat of a wooden spoon if my voice came off as even a little bit cross.


It was the first summer of living with A (my girlfriend at the time) and a small argument ensued that could have easily been discussed, resolved, and left in the past. Instead, I found myself shelling, re-examining every word I said, every action I took.

I was profusely overanalyzing the situation and apologizing for my actions. This would continue throughout the relationship and eventually drive a larger wrench.

While this wasn’t the main reason for the relationship to crash and burn, in hindsight, it was a large factor in my mental well-being and how I did and — truthfully still do — perceive myself.

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Fast forward to today; I am in a nurturing, loving relationship. My partner assures me every day that she loves me, all of me: the good, the bad, and the ugly.

At the risk of sounding blunt, a lot of the scars from our combative relationship are "the ugly." I am working every day to write over those scars and replace them with etchings of blessings.

A new perspective, a brighter tomorrow, a more positive, self-loving me. I can’t do that without forgiving you, though.

With that, Mom, I forgive you. I set us both free of the chains of our troubled past.

While I may not truly understand (and I am sure in the future, I will discover other hurdles I need to overcome), I am releasing myself for now.


I pray that you can come to terms with the demons you yourself are facing, for your own sake. We all have them. We are all flawed in our own ways. That is what makes us human.

Yet, the true beauty of humanity is finding a way to love someone despite their flaws. To put those imperfections aside and shed light on the good things. Life is not guaranteed so let’s spend the time we have making the best of it.

In love and forgiveness,


Your Daughter

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Theresa Faughnan is a writer and contributor to Unwritten whose work focuses on lifestyle, family, and mental health topics.