Why You Hate Your Body

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Why Your Body Image Sucks

At some point in your life, you decided that your body was wrong in some way. You were not born with that idea. It was an idea that you internalized from outside of yourself and came to accept as true.

You then probably set about doing whatever you could to remedy its "wrongness" so that your body would be more acceptable.

But why? How did you ever get it into your head that your body was a problem?

Who gave you that idea? Where did it all start?

My first memory of believing that my body was a problem was when I stood on a scale at the age of about 8. In truth, I didn't know what the number meant, but I did know that my mother and older sister stood on the scale almost every day and they were not happy with their numbers.

They were the most amazing women in my life! If they thought their numbers (i.e. bodies) were a problem, mine must have been too! How could mine possibly be OK and theirs wrong?

My mom and sister were either on a diet, thinking about starting a diet, cheating on a diet, or actively not on a diet (meaning eating all the non-diet foods they could until their next diet started). They were doing this to change their bodies because somehow, they had learned that their bodies were not good enough as they were.

Do you remember how you first learned your body wasn’t OK as it was? Did you learn it from a parent, a sibling, friend, teacher, or even a doctor? It doesn’t take much, just a passing comment can trigger the train of thought, that your body isn’t OK as it is.

Perhaps it wasn't your size that was made wrong.

Perhaps it was something else like your skin color or complexion or your gender orientation. Perhaps you were a Thalidomide baby. Perhaps you have a genetic condition or you’ve developed a syndrome that makes your body "other" than the norm. Perhaps people stared and pointed at you or averted their eyes from you.

Humans have a primary need to belong and to be accepted. This is necessary for our survival.

When your body is criticized, rejected, or shamed, it’s an absolute affront to that need for belonging.

But how did we come to believe this?

The trouble is that we live in an appearance-obsessed culture. Wherever we look, both online and offline, we see (photoshopped) images of thin, young, white, flawless women, with curves only in the ‘right’ places. Most of us do not find ourselves represented in these images.

What’s missing is body diversity, people of color and the full range of body shapes (not just in terms of fatness or thinness) but also in terms of deformities, scarring, gender fluidity, height, skin conditions etc.

Since my work is centered mainly around people with poor body image in relation to size, the rest of this blog will focus on that aspect.

The mere-exposure effect is a psychological phenomenon whereby consistent exposure to something develops a preference for that thing. In other words, the more you see it, the more you prefer to see it.

Did you know that in the US, 67 percent of women are ‘plus-size’, yet only 2 percent of media images reflect that? If you fall into any of the other categories above (non-white, scarred, with deformities, etc.) and you have a fat body, well, I don’t know what percentage of images in the media will represent your body, but I think I can safely bet it’ll be 0.0-something percent.

No wonder then that young American girls are more afraid of becoming fat than they are of nuclear war, cancer, or losing one of their parents. Read that again. Doesn’t that blow you away? 

Given what we’re consistently exposed to, it shouldn’t be surprising, that 75 percent of American women are dissatisfied with their appearance. Or that (often harmful and dangerous) skin-lightening creams are a multi-billion dollar industry in Africa and Asia? Or that in Lebanon plastic surgery for women is almost seen as a necessity (even to get a job) to the degree that there are special bank loans available for this purpose!

Typically when we see fat bodies in the media, they are all too often the butt of jokes.

Fat characters are usually portrayed as lazy, stupid, unhealthy, unhappy, clownish, bullied and alone. They very rarely are just ordinary people, living ordinary lives like anyone else: going to work, having relationships, being doctors, lawyers, or con-men and women, unashamedly enjoying sex with the lights on, exercising, enjoying food, and so much more.

There are just so many shows where every serious female character is slender, with flawless skin and glossy hair, even if she isn’t white-skinned!

The experience of poor body image didn't just come about since the internet or 24/7 TV! In some ways, I think it’s harder now because we are overexposed to media images.

My mother and sister had poor body image before we even had a television! And my grandmother, who grew up with no media at all, also spent a good deal of time plucking, fixing, and shaping her body to make it more acceptable. Why?

1. The Socio-Cultural Context

There are several other socio-cultural components to consider which work together to feed poor body image.

2.  The Patriarchy

Poor body image is a way to keep women from being their most powerful selves.

Girls are socialized to believe that being pretty or beautiful is imperative to being accepted, loved, and belonging. They learn that it’s of primary importance. More important than doing kind deeds or learning new skills or standing up for themselves.

Think how we speak about little girls we first meet them: "Oh, she’s so pretty/beautiful/cute!"

We do not say that about boys! Perhaps, if the little boy has particularly striking eyes or long black eyelashes, one might make some remark about his physicality, but that is not the norm.

Girls learn that their appearance is of primary importance when it comes to the approval of others. 

While women around the world are spending their money, time, effort, and energy on trying to make themselves ‘look better’ (i.e. meet the current beauty standards), that is money, time, effort, and energy we could be putting into any number of other pursuits or interests that will increase our level of happiness, connection, empowerment, achievement, sense of contribution to the betterment of others, and peace.

Destabilizing our sense of enough-ness keeps us from being a threat to male hegemony. 

This is not to say that men do not also experience poor body image. That is sadly on the increase and these next socio-cultural issues speak to that.

3. Fatphobia

Against this background, we also live in a Fatphobic culture. The medical profession has vilified fatness, which has become associated with laziness, ill-health, and incompetence. There’s a cultural belief (perpetuated by the medical profession) that fatness is equivalent to ill-health health.

However, the truth is that you cannot tell how healthy a person is from their appearance. There are unhealthy thin people and healthy fat people. As far as I know, there is not one study that proves that fatness causes ill-health.

Fatphobia has given rise to widespread weight stigma — meaning prejudice towards fat people. And this happens everywhere: in the media, in the doctor’s offices, in school playgrounds, gyms, around the dinner table, at work, and even on the street.

Read Health At Every Size and Body of Truth to learn more about this; it’s really important to understand.

4. Money makes the world go 'round

The bald truth is that there is a huge profit in poor body image. Destabilizing your sense of belonging means you’re vulnerable to being sold stuff to fix yourself in order to become more acceptable.

It’s only in the last decade or two that the marketing machine has cottoned onto the fact that it was missing out on half of the possible profits it could be making — hence, the rise in male body image issues.

Imagine what would happen to capitalist economies if we all decided we are enough as we are?

The more we participate in this, the more we reject our own bodies and judge other people’s bodies (as more or less acceptable than our own), the more we perpetuate our own poor body image, the more we allow this to continue down the generations… and the further away from ourselves we become.

Surely, peace is to be found in acceptance and connection with ourselves, our fellow humans and life itself?

Vania Phitidis helps women around the world make peace with their bodies and food. She is an Intuitive Eating Counsellor, a Mindfulness-Based Eating Awareness Training teacher, and a qualified Self-Esteem Mentor. Visit her website for more info and get her Guide to Peaceful Eating or book a free Discovery Session.​

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This article was originally published at Peaceful Eating Blog. Reprinted with permission from the author.