Why All I Want To Say To My Ex Is Thank You
I can't believe I let you make me feel so small.
SeventyFour / Shutterstock I never thought I would be the type of girl to ugly cry over a guy.
I saw myself as strong, independent, and very confident. Yet, there I was, lying in bed wondering what I had done wrong.
Was I not good enough? Was I not patient enough? Had I become too much? All these questions ran through my mind and I felt so small and pathetic.
I wondered if you thought about me at all. Did you mean it when you told me that I was the love of your life?
Months went by and you consumed my every thought. I could barely sleep or eat and I felt so alone.
Moving on was no easy thing.
However, time does, in fact, heal all wounds, and one day I woke up and decided that I wasn’t going to let the thought of you invade my every moment.
I needed to move on because I deserve to be happy, and I knew the world wasn’t going to stop for the girl with a broken heart.
There were a lot of red flags that I ignored for our relationship. I pushed away my friends because you didn’t like them and I became such a different person. And, honestly, I became someone I was not proud of.
This past year I have had time to reflect and I have learned so much about myself without you.
The minute you walked out of my life, you did me favor.
I felt content with our relationship and we had settled into a rhythm that I just didn’t want to break; the situation had become far too comfortable for me.
I thank you for pulling the plug on this relationship when I didn’t have the courage to do so myself. By the end it was like we had put on a play and neither one of us wanted to break character. There was so much fear surrounding that type of change.
This past year I have focused on being the best possible version of myself, for myself. I graduated college, I got a new job, and I’ve reconnected with my friends. I have learned what I want and what I won’t put up with.
I deserve someone that’s going to love me for me, even when I’m acting like a hormonal psychopath. I learned that sometimes being dumped is a blessing in disguise.
My mistake was letting you be the basis of my happiness, and I want you to know that when you left me you did not break me.
You made me stronger and for that I will always be grateful.
There are still times I can’t believe I let you consume so much of my time and my thoughts. And I can’t believe I let you make me feel so small.
All of those feelings and emotions have passed and I have closed the chapter of my life that involves you. I feel free, I feel happy, and I love the woman I am becoming.
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