How Becoming A Sexologist Forced Me To Completely Rethink My Own Relationship

Like many of us, I grew up in a household where sex was a taboo topic.

We didn't talk about it, we didn't acknowledge it and we certainly didn't celebrate it.

So, needless to say, when I met my first husband at the ripe old age of 17, I was completely clueless about what a healthy, fulfilling marriage was — never mind what a healthy and fulfilling sex life should look like.

Fast forward a few years and we're married with two kids. Don't get me wrong, he was a great husband and father in the early years.

But, like many couples, we put our children first and our marriage second. Communication was lacking, vulnerability was nonexistent, and our sex life was predictable and prosaic.

It wasn't until his mental illness crept in and caused irreparable damage that I realized something needed to change.

Emotional and verbal abuse became a staple in our interactions and it wasn't until I filed for divorce that I finally allowed myself to see that I deserved better.

That's when I decided to go back to school and become a sexologist.

I wanted to learn everything I could about what makes a relationship last, thrive and let's be real, hot and spicy.

Let me tell you, I learned a lot.

One of the biggest things I learned was the importance of emotional safety.

Creating a safe space for vulnerability, authenticity, acceptance, and sharing needs is absolutely crucial for a healthy and fulfilling sex life.

But it's not just about emotional safety. Trust, communication, effective conflict resolution, teamwork and intimacy in all forms (emotional, physical, financial, spiritual, intellectual, and recreational) are all key components of a successful relationship.

So how did all of this newfound knowledge impact my current relationship?

Well, let's just say it's been a total game-changer

I used to believe vulnerability was a weakness — I now know it is one of the greatest gifts that I can give.

Sharing what each other is feeling and what each other needs leads to a much deeper understanding. When we understand one another, it creates an opportunity for connection and intimacy to grow.

When I allow myself to open up and show my partner who I really am, the intimate connection elevates to a whole new level.

I feel safe. I feel like I am home. My husband and I are much more intentional about making time for each other: Having fun together, communicating openly and honestly, and exploring new, exciting ways to connect both emotionally and physically are a priority for both of us.

I also used to believe that I didn't need help or support from my partner. I was frequently trying to figure things out on my own. Asking for help, in my mind, was painful — so I didn't.

After a lot of work on myself, I can now say without a doubt, asking for help is part of a healthy relationship and it feels pretty great too.

Let's not forget about sex! I mean, if there has ever been more of a complete 180º documented in history, I would challenge it.

In my past relationship, initiating used to be a struggle for me. I didn't want to feel stupid or say something that sounded awkward. I didn't know what he wanted or even liked, so I rarely attempted.

Now knowing what my spouse likes and having a safe place to say what comes to mind is incredibly freeing. And, the best part, it's not just about the physical act of se — it's about feeling connected, valued, and desired by my partner.

Look, I'm not saying that becoming a sexologist is the answer to all of your relationship problems. I'm not even saying that my marriage is void of obstacles and curve balls.

How Becoming A Sexologist Forced Me To Completely Rethink My Own Relationship

The unexpected side effects of becoming a sexologist have been both life-altering and extremely satisfying.

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