10 Explanations Anyone Confused By Bisexuality NEEDS To Read

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Anyone Confused By Bisexuality NEEDS To Read

By Rebecca Shamblin

There was never a lightbulb moment in which I realized, “Hey! I’m bisexual!” I actually spent several years with a growing sense that something about me wasn’t quite the norm.

It wasn’t until I started reading fan fiction in earnest that the knowledge sort of snuck up on me … I wasn't heterosexual. Limiting my sexual interest to a single gender felt completely unnatural to me, so why should I keep faking it?

I decided to own the label when I went off to grad school—I'd simply introduce myself to new people as bi in the first place.

OK—no, I didn’t lead off with, “Hi, my name is Rebecca and I’m bisexual. How are you?” That would have labeled me as weird for a completely different reason! But I did make sure the topic arose early on in my interactions with new friends to present it as a simple fact about me—no different from my favorite color.

Little did they realize—I hope—how difficult it was for me to be so casual, how monumental our everyday conversation was to me. Eventually, after I sweated through the first few conversations, it stopped freaking me out so much.

New acquaintances were one thing—family was a much bigger issue to tackle. I promised myself if I ever started seriously dating a girl, I wouldn't hide it. But same-sex relationships with slippery lines between friendship and romance proved to be a greater challenge than I anticipated. I put it off and put it off and put it off … and then I got married.

Hurrah! Problem solved. I ended up with a man, so the subject would never have to come up.

Except … the subject never did come up and it felt wrong. It felt wrong to lie by omission—to enter into political arguments with family members who had no idea the stakes were so personal to me. It felt wrong to be two different me’s—to monitor everything I said when visiting family. And it felt very wrong to raise my daughter to believe I'm something I’m not. I knew I would eventually want to tell her and making it a secret to be revealed implied that it was something to be ashamed of.

I'm not ashamed. I'm just one me. I'm bisexual—and I'm talking about it.

As you read this article, my family members are reading with you. Today is the day I stop hiding. I know there will be confusion and so many questions. I created this list of anticipated questions because I wanted to address these issues from the beginning. Let’s start talking together.

Here are some questions and answers for those who might not yet understand. 

1. But … you’re married … to a man.

Yes! I am married to a wonderful man. Since I am attracted to men and women, I am free to marry either—thanks, Supreme Court! It happens to be a man in my case.

2. Does being married to a man mean you’re not bisexual anymore?

Being bisexual is a part of my identity and it didn't disappear when I got married. I continue to find women attractive, because that’s how my body and brain work.

3. So, do you secretly have crushes on your female friends?

Just as straight women are able to have friendships with men that don’t involve sex, queer women are able to have friendships with women that don’t involve sex. I'm not attracted to every person I see—being bisexual simply means that I don’t automatically rule anyone out due to their gender.

4. Wait, I thought we weren’t supposed to say “queer.”

At one time, “queer” was used as a slur, but the LGBTQ community has largely embraced and reclaimed the term. Many of us find it to be the best way to describe a sexual identity “out of the norm.”

The best way to know how to refer to someone is to ask them how they self-identify. I do identify as queer, so it’s just fine to use that word with me.

5. Does your husband know?

My husband has known I'm bisexual since the day we met and it has never been an issue for us. He has also been part of my decision to come out now. I couldn’t ask for better emotional support.

6. Does being bisexual mean you cheat on your husband?

My husband and I made a commitment to each other and I would never break that commitment.

Bisexual people aren’t “naturally promiscuous” any more than straight people, but we get slapped with the assumption that no matter which gender we are with, we're probably cheating on that person with someone from the other gender. That’s not how this works. My sexual identity has nothing to do with keeping the vows of my marriage.

7. Do we have to talk about your sexuality next time I see you? Should I avoid the topic?

That's up to you. I would be very happy to answer any questions you have. This isn't a shameful secret you need to avoid mentioning. It may come up in conversation or it may not. If we start discussing the SCOTUS decision to allow gay marriage, it’s going to come up.

8. What will we tell our kids who know you?

I hope you tell them, “Rebecca has let us know that she's bisexual. Let’s talk about what that means and what questions you may have.” Children are extra welcome to ask me questions and you don’t need to be embarrassed by what they might say.

If you choose not to say anything to them, just understand that I will not be hiding this part of myself if it arises in conversation.

9. But homosexuality is a sinthe Bible says so.

First, the Bible is written and interpreted by humans, thus it's one centuries-long game of “Telephone.” Many people disagree on the Bible’s “official stance” on homosexuality and I don’t personally ascribe to the interpretation that it’s forbidden.

Second, even if I were to agree with that interpretation—I'm not a religious person. I don't make my decisions based on the Bible and I don’t think our country should either. If you attempt to shame me from a religious perspective—the conversation will be unproductive.

10. But sexual lives are privatewhy do you feel the need to bring this up?

I wrestled with that question for a very long time. I’ve known I was bisexual since college, so that’s almost 15 years of not being my full self in all situations. I'm speaking up now because I think it's very important that my family and friends understand that they know someone who's queer. 

When you discuss “gay issues,” you aren't talking about “those people”—you're talking about me. This isn't a philosophical or political issue that can be debated from a distance—this is my life. It's my sincere hope that this action will prompt even one person to pause and look at these issues from a more personal perspective.

I also find it increasingly important that my daughter understands who I am. I don’t ever want to “come out” to her—I want her to grow up knowing me fully and my orientation will just be another normal part of my identity. No matter what orientation she adopts as she gets older, I want for her to understand the amazing spectrum that exists in this world. I want her to love and be loved period—everybody’s in.

This article was originally published at Ravishly. Reprinted with permission from the author.