When I was in college, my then boyfriend really wanted to try something sexually with me that I really didn’t want to do. But, wanting to be the “good girlfriend” (more on this later), I brushed off his pestering with excuses, hoping he’d just drop it. Since he’d told me at the beginning of our relationship that he wanted to whisk me off to Hawaii for the weekend sometime, so I told him that if he ever did, I would go along with his request, for anal sex, then. (Not exactly smart, but it was the only way I could get him to shut up about it.)
Then, our two-year anniversary came along, and he’d rented a really nice hotel room for us. When I got there, I saw that he’d decorated the entire place: There were leis, grass skirts, a coconut bra and water bottles in the shape of pineapples. He told me that since we couldn’t actually go to Hawaii right then, he’d recreated it for me. Of course, this was more of a means of convincing me to give him what he wanted, and less of a sweet romantic gesture.
After fighting about it for a bit, I agreed to let him just do it. It was our anniversary: He’d spent like $500 on the hotel room, I was sick of arguing about it, blah blah blah. After he got in about an inch, my entire body recoiled. The feeling was surreal: It was like each cell in me was screaming “no.” I told him to stop and he did but, for the rest of our relationship (which lasted longer than I can admit without being embarrassed), he’d harass me about doing it again. Since he didn’t get in all the way, it “didn’t count.”
Years later, I realized that my now-ex wasn’t exactly the greatest of guys: As a general rule, it’s a big red flag if your boyfriend pressures you into doing something sexually that you say you’re not comfortable with. Looking back, I see that I should have walked away right then and there. As it turned out, not only was there was more sexual-guilting to come, but this guy’s selfishness soon extended beyond the bedroom.
Whether or not you and your guy have been intimate yet, sex (even theoretically) is a very important part of a long-term relationship. It’s one way couples express love and, really, have a unique kind of fun together. And it requires respect and trust in order to remain a positive part of your bond.