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My Unfulfilled Fantasy: Same-Sex Hookups

I've had crushes on women my entire life, but I've never gotten around to dating one.

When I was leaving for college, my high school friends predicted two things would occur once I fled the nest, away from my WASP-y parents: 1) I'd become a chain smoker to complete my poetry-reading, philosophy-pondering image, and 2) I'd get it on with girls. The Frisky: Documentary Suggests All Women Are Gay

After four years at hippie-dippy NYU, surprisingly, neither of these predictions came true. Alas, while I still have no interest whatsoever in getting lung cancer, I do still have an interest in hooking up with girls. Except these days, I'm pretty much convinced it's never going to happen. The Frisky: 8 Sex "Mistakes" We Don't Regret From College

If you asked me to define my sexual orientation, I would say "straight," because that's the quick answer—but the real answer is more "straight-ish." I've only dated men and had sex with men, but I've had intense crushes on women my whole life. That's not enough to say "bisexual" in my book, but enough to say "straight-ish." The Frisky: How To be A Good Hookup

It started in 9th grade with Carly. She was my first kiss ever during a game of spin-the-bottle. To my utter surprise, she asked me to be her date to Homecoming!  One day, hanging out on her bed, talking about our dresses, my hormones were bleeping and blooping off the charts—I wanted to kiss her. But did I take Carly in my arms and plant a big lusty smooch on her? Hell, no. I was way too scared. The Frisky: MERRIMe, A New Web Comedy About Online Dating

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Posted 1 week ago

I think this woman is driving herself crazy worrying about might have beens. For one thing, she's only been with this guy 6 months. It might not last forever. Mostly, though, I think it's not helpful to sit around thinking about the things you will never experience. It just makes you feel deprived and want to cheat.

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Posted 1 week ago

yea I can relate to this one..

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Posted 2 weeks ago

I can relate on this. I would call myself straight, yet i often find myself thinking about what it would be like to sleep with another woman-i think its the unknown of it all. I find women beautiful, far more so then men in terms of physical attractivness, but iv never met a woman i fancy or have had any romantic feelings for. So although the idea of girl on girl action appeals, my problem is finding someone i would want to have sex with. and just sex. No cuddles after or any form of extended relationship. Which makes me think i make the most confusing girlfriend for a male, and the worst bisexual ever!

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Can Relate - Posted 2 weeks ago

OMG someone else who feels the same way! I consider myself pansexual (a more gender-open version of bisexual) and like you I've had very intense crushes on women but never any experience with them. You at least seemed to have women going for you!

I also have a boyfriend, 3 years running, and we're in an open-ish relationship mainly for my benefit - so that I could explore this other aspect of my sexuality. He doesn't need to watch (he'd like to but that doesn't mean I'd let him) or even be involved in any way - my connection with women is mine alone.

Problem is though that I still can't find any women to hook up with! I'm not after major commitment, just some physical intimacy and a good snuggle. I'm slowly making my way through the local lesbian community but I seem to give off major "straight" vibes - and there's still some stigma against bisexuality. (And it doesn't help that I seem to fall for STRAIGHT women. bah.)

so hey! good to know we're not alone in this.

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