I always thought I was happy, but looking back, I was anxious, broke and in a bad relationship. It wasn't until I discovered the secret of happiness that my life changed. Here's the secret: Your outer world is an exact match to your inner world.
If you (like the old me) criticize yourself in your head and always think you should be doing better, then you will attract people who give you the exact amount of appreciation and gratitude that you are able to give yourself. The same goes for material abundance. You will receive money and good fortune in direct proportion to how much you love and support yourself. How do I know? Because I've been on both sides of the fence. Despite the fact that I have a graduate degree and long list of accomplishments, I wasn't getting work. I couldn't figure it out. I would call my sister on the phone each month before my mortgage was due and host a huge pity party for myself as I anguished about why I wasn't making any money.
And even though I'm a pretty good catch (if I do say so myself...), I was attracting men who were stingy with me. They withheld what I needed most: vital communication and kind words.
Somewhere along the line I started adding this affirmation to my morning mediation: Today I receive all that is already mine. The mystic in me perceived that there was a big storehouse of good waiting for me, but that somehow I needed to open up so that I could receive it. After repeating, "Today I receive all that is already mine," I would sit with my eyes closed and open myself up from the inside. It's a subtle feeling, almost like quietly breathing from the deepest part your belly instead of from your chest. The good news is that I started to feel immediately happier, more supported and more loved. It was as if the good was there all along but I was looking for it in the wrong place — outside of myself. It took a little while for things to shift on the outside. But I continued to repeat my affirmation every morning followed by a few minutes of receptive openness and gradually my life began to change.
I started getting more work and eventually became completely booked with the kind of work that I love to do: Teaching people the secrets to happiness and success. My relationship with my boyfriend didn't change much, but I started getting a lot more love and appreciation from others and eventually his degree of affection was no longer a match to my inner world, so the relationship ended.
What I realized from this experience is that most of us have some inner resistance for one reason or another. It could be a level of self-rejection or simple avoidance of suppressed emotion, the reason doesn't really matter. What matters is that you choose to look inward and receive whatever is there. Once you do, you will be in a position to receive all of the delicious things life has to offer.
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