A few months ago I introduced readers to the Seven Dwarves of Smallness. Others call them your demons, but I think that gives them too much power. The Seven Dwarves are the gatekeepers to your soul. They are there to protect who you really are. I'm here to stick up for them, because the truth is, they have a very important job. They were put in place to keep your greatest gifts safe from harm.
As soon as you decide to do something to make your life better, your Seven Dwarves will start throwing up road blocks. Their job is to keep you small so you don't realize how big you really are. They keep you in fear so you continue to experience yourself as a mere mortal, when in fact you are a spiritual being having a human experience. The Dwarves tell you all the ways you're not good enough to get what you say you want.
The first of the seven dwarves is abandonment. This dwarf's theme is: Nobody likes me, and the people who love me will leave me. Abandonment is responsible for all the stories you have about being abandoned or rejected, and there are hundreds if not thousands of stories the abandonment dwarf will tell you about yourself.
Abandonment is really just trying to keep you safe from heartbreak. It thinks that if you keep your heart closed, nobody will be able to abandon or reject you. The problem is that abandonment is wrong: A closed heart is a broken heart. The only way to stay safe from heartbreak is to open your heart all the way. If you're willing to take in the lesson of the heartbreak, you'll learn how to open your heart wider.
Here are five of the main ways abandonment shows up in people's lives:
1. You look for flaws. When you find someone who might be a good partner, you start looking for their faults. You look for what's wrong instead of what's right. Nobody ever breaks up with you because you don't give them a chance. You're always the one to leave.
2. People think you're shy or reserved. You're hard to get to know because you don't trust people. You're afraid that if you let someone in, you'll be hurt. So you end up lonely instead.
3. You fall hard and fast, over and over again. You're always in a relationship because you don't know who to be as an individual. You're in love with the idea of love, but find it difficult to actually execute. You can't do enough for your partner, and you're a giver. You don't understand why he doesn't appreciate you.
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