I went to college with the intent of becoming a Social Worker. However, I was born sensitive and empathetic. These two traits are the same ones that drew me to social work, and repelled me from it.
I was the girl who would cry on the train because someone, in thier advanced years, was sitting alone and looked sad. I would pick up that sadness and hold it inside my chest until it leaked out of my eyes. Not a great way to deal with things in socail work. My ex-husband, then my boyfriend, made me take a hard look at what it might be like for me to deal with real issues for children and adults in our society. HE was right. I was not ready for that.
So, I went on to HR, for a very short time, then advertizing.Then, I moved to marketing in law firm. That was the last job I held full-time when I married and began a family.
After my third baby (I stayed home full-time after a few weeks back to work after my second child) I have sevre post-partum depression. I could not stop crying or worrying about hurting my baby. I tried numerous medications, various physical programs. Nothing worked.
I met a freind of a friend who was a Coach and had also suffered from post-partum depression. She suggested that I would make a great life coach. Hmmm..
This thought was not completely new to me, but it was good to hear it from someone who actually did life coaching. I looked at various schools and chose to attend CTI to become a Co-Active Coach. I just believe in what they put out in the world. We are not broken. We are just right, but we hide who we really are under all of the shoulds, and self doubt and other things we have picked up along the way. I believe that if we all uncovered exactly who we are supposed to be, the humna race would run like a perfect machine. We would all connect like a huge puzzle and create something new a amzing.
As I was looking at myself during my 2 years of post-partum (I said it was serve), I also realized that a big part of my issue was my marriage. I was not happily married. We worked on it, but in the end, we were better off going in dofferent directions. And here I am today.
I was always meant to help other people, but I had to help myself first. And While I "hold space" for people tpo discover and transform themselves, I continue to learn and grow. I learn as much if not more from my clients than they learn from me. We are all courageous and beautoful bright stars, when we allow it. I want to help people allow it all! Thank you for reading all of this, if you did. I hope you did not fall asleep.