You may judge, but therapy saved my life.
My best friend and I are constantly playing phone tag. But there's one person who promises to have my undivided attention once a week, no matter what: Dr. R, my therapist.
For the past 2.5 years, we've spent 55 minutes every Tuesday evening together, and for that, I'm grateful.
My adventures in therapy began during my sophomore year in college, when I walked into my campus's mental health center after a close friend suffered a mental breakdown.
We were so alike, I knew that if I didn't do something, my fate would be similar. Now, five years later, I consider that decision the best choice I've ever made.
Just as many of us indulge in weekly nail salon trips to keep up our appearance, therapy sessions are essential to my emotional upkeep.
But once I started being open with family, friends, and even acquaintances about going to therapy, I started to realize there are more than a few misconceptions out there about it.
Here are some of the dumbest things I've heard people say to me about therapy, and the actual truth about what really happens behind the white noise machine.
1. "Therapists just agree with everything you say to make you feel better about your life."
Let me paint you a picture of a typical session between Dr. R and me:
Me: "Do you think that [insert person who makes me insecure] was right? Am I really like that? Is that true?"
Dr. R: *Stares back at me in silence for a few seconds*
Me: *Throws head back with frustration* "I know you're not going to answer that."
Dr. R: *Smiles* "Well, what do you think about it?"
Me: *I begin to verbally walk through my reasoning and begin to form a clearer idea how I'm feeling*
Therapists act as a guide through the winding road of personal convictions. During our sessions, Dr. R will ask questions or make a statement that may redirect me to examine things from a different perspective, but will never give a yes-or-no answer.
It's true: Dr. R has raised my self-esteem, but not by inflating my ego. Therapy has increased my self-worth by teaching me to trust myself through the art of self-awareness.
2. "Your therapist must think I'm a horrible person because of all the things you say about me."
Don't flatter yourself. Everyone in my life, both past and present, has been brought up in a therapy session at some point over the past five years.
By reflecting on dynamics in my relationships, I've become a better daughter, friend, girlfriend, colleague, and overall person. Just because we have a squabble, that doesn't mean you'll be the emphasis of my next session.
It's rare that one issue or person is the topic of an entire appointment. And if you're that self-conscious, consider scheduling your own appointment to explore that concern (just sayin').
3. "Isn't therapy just talking about how terrible your childhood was and blaming your parents for everything?"
During the course of my adventures in therapy, I've spent a considerable amount of time reflecting on my entire past — not just my childhood. However, since I'm only 25, a majority of my past is my formative years.
I don't use the past to place blame on bad habits or poor choices made in the present. The exploration of my childhood serves as a tool in identifying explanations for my reactions to certain situations and patterns I've repeated in certain relationships. It's just one piece of a very complex puzzle.
4. "Do you lay on a long couch and cry?"
In all my years in therapy, never once have I laid down. Sometimes, when I'm tired after a long day of work, I'll lean my head on the side of the comfy couch in Dr. R's dimly-lit office, but that's about it.
We sit a few feet apart from each other, usually me with an ice coffee in hand, and her with a cup of tea.
While tissues are always available, I barely use them. The times I have cried during therapy have always been the most unexpected. More often, I find myself cursing in therapy while rehashing a situation.
And surprisingly, there's also plenty of laughing during our sessions, especially when Dr. R repeats something I said and it sounds so outlandish I can't help but giggle (particularly when it involves cursing).
5. "Why not talk to your friends and family instead of a stranger?"
A friendship is a two-way street, where there's a mutual sharing of struggles, triumphs, and opinions. That can make being an objective listener difficult.
My relationship with Dr. R is a one-sided. I've only ever seen her in one setting, and the irony isn't lost on me that I know nothing about the woman I pour my heart out to each week.
She doesn't share her own experiences, nor does she use her own struggles as a point of reference. I can freely share without worrying about offending her.
She's also a doctor who's spent years mastering the therapeutic process. If I needed physical medical treatment like an examination or surgery, I wouldn't go to my best friend just because she cares about me. The same reasoning applies to mental health care — the experts know best.
6. "But the fact that you're paying her means she has to pretend to care about you."
Although I do write Dr. R a check each week, that doesn't take away from the fact that she cares about my well-being. When I share an accomplishment we've talked about, her enthusiasm is authentic, since she's traveled the road alongside me to get there.
In the moments when my voice trembles while talking about an especially difficult emotion, her empathetic voice and support helps me work through my thoughts.
7. "Is therapy really worth it?"
Honestly, without therapy, I wouldn't be living up to my potential. It's the reason I've been able to really evolve as a young adult. The process is anything but easy, and it's actually given me the tools to more effectively deal with life's ups and downs.
The bottom line? If you have a friend in therapy, don't be a jerk about it.
Hold the jokes, snarky comments, and invasive questions. Take it as a compliment that they confided in you about something so personal. Therapy may not your cup of tea, but if it's making your loved one a healthier and happier person, give them kudos for their dedication to self-improvement.
And if you've been on the fence about therapy but are unsure about making the plunge, just try it! It's not a lifetime commitment, but it can be a life-changing decision.
Patrice Bendig is a Philadelphian who is trying to survive her twenties and not trip down any steps. She is a graduate of St. John's University, but has made a career in managing non-profit social media and multimedia platforms. Follow her on Twitter @Patrice_Bendig for more hilarity. You can read her other musings on her blog, Quarter Life Writings and view her portfolio at www.patricebendig.com. She can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.
This article was originally published at The Huffington Post. Reprinted with permission from the author.