Alive Again and Trusting My Design and Guidance
By Lana Pritzker. Posted on .
When I began working with Lana Pritzker, my life was in shambles. I was desolate, in despair and depressed. My family had fallen apart; I had just gotten out of a rehabilitation center for trauma survivors, endured a nasty divorce and was declaring bankruptcy. I was deathly ill, in and out of hospitals with no one to support me and no answers. I got diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 34. I lost everything I held dear to me. Then, my beloved dog dropped dead on me. I thought my life was over. The entire construct of my reality as I had known it was shattered. I was lost, floating in another world that I did not understand.
Throughout my life I had tried everything I could to lift myself up by my bootstraps, after having endured a horrendously abusive childhood that I would not wish on my worst enemy. My mind was full of self-defeating programming that was slowly killing me, as my captures were long gone out of my physical realm.
Then, I met Lana. With kind command, she helped me to piece back pieces of myself that had been long shattered and left behind. Rather than re-traumatizing me by going over the hideous details of the abuse I'd endured, she offered fresh new perspectives that allowed me to work through my emotions and release them.
The insights that she provided though my Design Reading sessions allowed me to understand my own unique timing, and empowered me to trust my own inner guidance, and no longer follow the script and voices of the "Others". This gave me a greater sense of purpose, hope and understanding that allowed me to keep living, one breath and one wave of emotion at a time.
Lana taught me that I could rise above and move through the emotional waves that needed to be released from my body - that they would not devour me or take over my life. She taught me empowering words, tools and new belief structures that have changed my life forever.
I am still transforming, and some days are easier than others, but I will never ever be at the same level of despair that I was when my life intersected with Lana's.
Lana is a unique, intelligent and amazing woman that I admire, a mentor and a coach that I will forever hold dear to my heart. This woman has not only changed my life for the better, but has allowed me to become a bridge for those around me by passing on her message and sharing the tools she taught me with others. I highly recommend having Design coaching sessions with Lana!
As I slowly cleared away the rubble and debris of the life I had created through unconscious decision making, I re-discovered my childhood sense of wonder and play. I transformed my struggles into well-examined lessons. Lana helped me to quit smoking, after a chain-smoking 2.5 packs a day, using breathing and energy modalities and start a new life that includes expressing my true essence, with less and less concern of how other people perceive my choices.
I live for me now, the most important person in my life today. At times I stumble, but am empowered more than ever before. Though I still struggle with fear, anxiety and trust issues, I look them in the face now rather than run from them. I breathe. I trust things always turn out for the best. I work out again. I meditate. I dance. I rap. I sing. I paint. I write. I make new friends.
If there's one thing that Lana taught me that I keep in mind every day, it is that fear and excitement are two sides of the same coin. Today I am seeing my reality more and more in living colors and less and less in Black and White.
Lana offered me a new dynamic of experiencing the world, interpreting my relationships and moving through my emotions. She helped me to find hope, have courage, and be in command of my world. I go out of my comfort zone each and every day, and even though it sometimes still feels terrifying, I am ALIVE again. No longer a sleeping walking zombie, I choose to live each day as a child, having a new experience in the world with all its craziness and beauty.
Nina Gargovic
Kidfirmations empowers children and parents with practical tools for
living in alignment with their true nature.
