This Is Not A Love Story—It's Actually More Of A Meltdown

walking alone

I'd rather hide my head in the sand—know what I mean?

Where do I begin….? I woke up to that song stuck in my head—you know the one—the one from Love Story. OK, so maybe you're not old enough to remember it. Trust me, it's annoying and so is the movie. I mean, "Being in love means never having to say you're sorry!" What the hell is that supposed to mean—44 years later it still baffles me.

But I digress, something I'm prone to these days. Digressing is much easier than facing what I'm facing and doing what I have to do. I'd rather hide my head in the sand—know what I mean? But it's time to walk the walk and talk the talk. Here’s what I tell my clients: "You need to talk, really talk about money because just like sex it's on your mind all the time but you never really talk about it!"

So, although I'd rather do anything else (even diet) it's time to follow my own advice—I'm going to talk, really talk about what I'd much rather hide. I've decided to come clean, be honest and take you on my hair-raising journey.

Twice a year I take myself on a fall retreat—the same thing I've done for 10 years with the same group at the same place. I stop to come back to earth, reset myself so I can keep on plodding. It's where reality settles in, creativity comes alive and friends support each other. And, every year I go kicking and screaming all the way—it's easier to just keep going. 

During a meditation, I hear "Share your Journey!" Loud and clear—more a shout than a whisper. Now that I think about it, maybe it wasn't my higher self. Maybe it was just that part of me that finds pleasure in pinching all those tender places—like the soft underside of my arm.

And, then the annoying song: "Where do I begin to tell the story of how great a love can be?" If you haven't seen Love Story, you really have to see it to believe it. Ryan O'Neil and Ali MacGraw—at their irritating best. 

I wish what I'm about to tell you was a great love story; believe me, I'm working hard to come up with a new angle. One day the angle is bad economic times, another day it's the ridiculous real estate market or the curse of digital books. Then, of course, some days it's just bad decisions (don't like to go there) and you should know better (don't like that one either) and the big one—you're supposed to be the financial expert (I really hate that one)!

The bottom line is this: I'm in the middle of a financial meltdown, and lucky YOU get to live vicariously through it with me. So hang on. I'm about to get honest with the good, the bad and the ugly. Now there's another good, old movie—another one that doesn't play so well on hindsight. Something happens when movies age not always like fine wine.

So stay tuned for the good the bad and the ugly. Right now I don't see much good but with you by my side maybe it'll pop up and join us once in a while.

Here's praying at you, kid….

Jane works with individuals and couples in person, by telephone or Skype. As coach, consultant and trusted advisor, Jane will help find a new way of thinking about and living with money. During a series of six meetings you and Jane will co-create the best way to solve your specific money issues. Along the way, you may choose to continue working with Jane to tackle other business, work, and life issues.