Love Cleanse - Day Four - October 8


I mentioned him on a couple of tweets (a normal twitter thing on Fridays). Does not need to be viewed as a big deal, or start a conversation. It's my way of thanking him for supporting my blog, which he's done for me all week, even though we aren't really speaking.

I keep thinking I'm angry. Or sad. Or just confused. I keep thinking that everything is going to be fine, and I will wake up one day and be happy and looking forward to things, like I was before.

Then I think - wouldn't it be more fun if I knew I was going to see him soon?

The answer is yes, it would.

So then I think, well there are no rules. Maybe I should just tell him how I feel.

The response to that is not enough time has gone by. I know that. It doesn't make much sense to get in touch with him when I'm not 100% sure how I feel, and I know there's no way he does either. What good would it do me to repeat our conversation? To have him tell me again that he's confused?

It makes way more sense to keep to myself, give the whole thing more time. Then, if I still feel the same down the road, at least I'm more likely to get a more definite answer from him.

I'm going to have my tarot cards read after work. Then I may go to a movie - another thing we shared that I need to try and do on my own.