Dont know what think..or what to do


Dear Lyz - Im very sorry if i email you out of the blue. i dont know
how i came across your email address (something It did state
if i have a problem to email.
I would appreciate some light going mad and beginning to
get hurt. Here it goes :
I have recently come out of a 10 year relationship. The last 6 mnths
of the relationship i started to fall a girl in my office and we
started to see each other so much so we had an affair. I was living a
double life. I would see this girl everytday after work and the weekend
i was back with my girlfriend. I wasnt proud of this and hated the life
i was leading.
I must say that i love my girlfriend but not in love with her and its
been like this for many years. So much so i wasnt even having sex. She
is a fabulous girl .
Anyway, it was causing much pain to this other girl as every weekend i
could be with her. She often tried to break the relationship as she
coudn't handle the situation as it was hurting her too much. I tried
everything to be patient. It all came to a head and she just had enuff
and ended it all. I have triedb to reconcile what i can with her but
its just not the same and she tells me she doesnt feel the same
anymore. However, we occassionally go out as friends and ended up
getting very close..kissing etc and even staying over. I cant work this
out...i really want her but she doesnt seem to want it anymore but
still wants affection. Its really hard as i work with her!! Your advice
and thoights will be so appreciated. excuse my emglish and grammar as i
write before in think!!
kind reagrds