first date in 20 years

first date in 20 years

i planned my first date since my divorce. All be my self and through the internet.
wow, its been 20 years since i've been out with a guy. but i think in retrospect i planed for it to fail.
I picked someone just like me, his first time dating since being divorced.

we spend the day talking about spouses, in laws, children and realized we are both of low self esteem, afraid to start again and sad to have to do it at this age.

i didnt get any form of courtesy, we sat  and talked like old friends, no holding hands no kissing

so, i left feeling more lost and insecure then when i started.

we did plan to meet again but then he had cold feet and kept putting it off until i just gave up.