Think back to when you were 9 or 10 and you may make some interesting and exciting discoveries.
Lately I’ve been thinking about all the things I wanted to be when I grew up. This brings to mind one particular not so pleasant memory. I was nine and our third grade class was asked to share what we wanted to be when we grew up. I can still picture my hand waving madly as I waited for Mrs. Shackman to pick me. And when she did I stood up and announced so proudly that I want to be a singer, actress, writer and mother. But Mrs. Shackman shook her head, told me to sit down and adamantly declared, “silly, you are going to get married and have babies”.
When you are in love or in infatuation it is almost impossible to be honest that this relationship really isn't right for you. We stay for love, to try to make it work, even when our intuition is trying desperately to get our attention. If we just listened to it, before walking down the aisle or moving in together, we'd save ALOT of heartache and money.
This is the first blog I've ever written; it's weird. I feel pretty weird myself. Shouldn't a person be able to discern her feelings? Know exactly how she feels about a person? My ex did some hurtful things in the 6 months preceding our breakup. We were together for several years and were dissimilar in our interests. We've been talking for about 3 months now. He says he wants to be more than friends and has made some dramatic changes in his life. We're more compatible now than before! I'm so frustrated because I'm not sure how I even feel towards him. And now he would make a much better partner than before. So, this stresses me out. It doesn't help that a few people have said "Well, if you don't know by now then it isn't right." He was a big part of my life, and I know I don't want to lose him. But I'm not sure if I want more than friendship...I just feel like I'm an idiot for not knowing : /
An introduction to me, well me at this minute, being the other woman .....my ADD gets the better of my writing so please bare with me , I tend to write in little phrases of what I can recall.
i've been with my now fiance for 3yrs. engaged for a year in a half. Iam not ready for marriage because i cannot trust him at all, at the time i accepted the engagement ring we were fine. we have a babyboy that just turned one i have a daughter he has been racing since she was 1 and he has two other kids. I noticed a few numbers of different girls in his phonebook and seen phone calls or text at random times one of these girls was a gogo dancer were he use to go. every girl i found out about i had confronted them, they were defensive but they will also tell me to leave him that he is not worth it, he has stop this for while but everytime he goes out on the weekend i be so panic jealous and uncontrollable he asked a few times for us to leave each other. i cant trust him no matter what, he is a DJ very popular and girls be on him like white is on rice. Its getting to a point that he is getting tired of me always fighting and calling him 50 times while he is out with his boys. I never ever cheated on him but sometimes i want to because i think he is cheating but i do not have proof. And trust me i be on his phone every single day checking it. He calls me a good detective, because i get him caught that very first day he even tries anything. I am almost like a stalker and he made me this way. ITS JUST SO SAD AT TIMES. im not making him happy because of my jealousy and he hurts me the way he talks to me. other than this we do have a great sex life. its just complicated.......
