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How do I make my friends with benefits become a relationship?
Okay. This is a huge problem for me. I met this boy at the end of university last year and we started dating over the summer. We fell in love. Now, a couple weeks ago we broke up. He said he didn't feel as strongly about me anymore, but he was still attracted and cared about me, but because of my depression it made us unhealthy. Probably about a week after we broke up, I suggested we still fool around. He agreed. We hang out, and do pretty much all the same stuff we did when we were together. He kisses/hugs me hello and goodbye. We cuddle and watch movies. We act like idiots and get junk food. The only thing we don't do is say, "i love/miss you" and hold hands. I don't get it.
On the weekend we both ended up at the bar. I had left with my friend for a while to go to a liquor store because we didn't pre-drink enough and we were spending too much at the bar and weren't getting tipsy. A few times we ran into people and chatted with them. We didn't find a liquor store open and went back to the bar. We had a couple more drinks and started dancing. My fwb said we should all go back to his friends place to get more drunk and party. And just as he was leading my friend and I to the exit, one of the guys we ran into on the street got excited when he saw us. We laughed and talked briefly and then my friend and I turned around and my fwb was gone. Right at that moment I got a text from him: "Are you coming... or you can stay with that guy. Whatever." So we hurried out. He was jealous. And he's always asking if I have met any guys to like "hang out" with. I tell him no, since I haven't. He always says, "Good:)"
So we went to his friends, we all got drunk, my friend hooked up with one of his, and he and I hooked up.
Argh. It's SO annoying!! He's always complimenting my body and says he loves it and he loves when we have sex and I have the most gorgeous boobs.The other day I said I couldn't go out cause I already took off my makeup and was in my frumpy clothes, and he told me he's seen me at my worst. I can't remember what I said after, but then he said, "you always look beautiful:)" Like what the fuck!? Do you think he wants to get back together, or is he just fucking with me immensely??
I know I could just talk to him.. but I'm too nervous right now.. I don't want to hear something I don't want to. I'm not ready yet.
Also, I got on some new medications and have being a shrink. I've never loved life more and everyone can see that. He's even noted. So I don't know.