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do I only want him now because he doesn't want me?
I was seeing my ex for a year and a half. I had my doubts all through the relationship - he was 8 years older and divorced with 2 kids and I thought I should try to find someone else. I did enjoy doing things with him and we had a good sex life but I always had my eye open for someone else - I even tried dating sites thinking I could find someone else. I made excuses about introducing him to my friends and family and I often would rather spend time with my friends. I never really thought about him when I was away from him and sometimes I found his conversation boring. Sometimes I would find him less attractive and when I was away from him I didn't think about him that much. Don't get me wrong, I did really love spending time with him but I guess something was holding me back. So, here is the problem - after thinking that he would always be there (how stupid I was considering how I treated him really) he told me that our relationship was not working and he only wanted to see me as a friend with benefits. Suddenly I forgot all the things that bugged me about him and all I wanted was to get him back - now I think I'll never find anyone like him and worry that I've let a good thing go - what a mess! Did I ruin things by thinking the grass was greener or if I was really into him would i have had so many doubts? It is driving me crazy!