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Deployment blues

Published on August 3, 2010 by maureen9330

My boyfriend of 8 months deployed a few weeks ago. He's only gone for 4 months, but I am starting to feel the weight of this deployment. I feel like I should be prepared for this because he moved a few months earlier from my area (Washington DC) to Florida. I was used to seeing him almost every day and had to get used to daily phone calls, texts and an occasional visit. Now, I am lucky if I get an email every other day. I miss him dearly, but I hate how dependent on him I feel. This is my first serious, long-term relationship, so I don't have a lot of experience in this department, which I have found is a pro and a con. I am worried that our relationship will start to weaken... he's doing all this cool new stuff on a ship in foreign countries; I'm stuck here doing the same old thing, day in and day out, wondering if he even misses me. Lately, I feel close to tears at any given time of the day. I have never loved someone before, he is my first, and I do very much, but I don't know if I am prepared for this and I am afraid I am going to do something (unintentionally) to sabotage this relationship. I am scared and constantly emotional. Any suggestions or pointers? Thank you very much. ~Maureen