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Annoyed For No Reason
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I have been in a relationship with my current boyfriend for about 7 months now. He is incredibly kind, caring, supportive, and affectionate, and I know I'm very lucky to have him. I know I love him, but some days I wake up and literally cannot stand anything he does. The sound of him eating will annoy me. The little jokes he will make annoy me. The way he constantly wants to cuddle me annoys me. He can never give me a short, sweet kiss, but insists on either kissing me upwards of 6 times in a row, or kissing me for like 30 seconds straight. I have never been a super affectionate person, so when he is this affectionate it is obnoxious to me, and when I'm already annoyed with him it drives me crazy. After I spend the entire day being bothered by these things, I have a terrible time sleeping because he wakes me up multiple times a night trying to spoon me or rub my stomach or something.
I know everything he does is done with good intentions, and he only wants to show me he loves me, but when he is this cuddly/kissy for days on end, I end up being bothered by his mere existence, and have to take a few days to myself before I can be around him again. I also know I really value my alone time, which is surely accountable for some of my desire to be away from him. After a few days to myself I do start to miss him, and I remember again just how much I love him and why I love him.
So many women would kill to have what I have, and I feel like I struggle to even appreciate it some days because it irks me so badly. I might also mention that, although for different reasons, this overpowering feeling of annoyance has accompanied every relationship I've been in around the 7-8 month mark. Is there a reason this always happens to me? I worry that I'm doing something wrong. If all of my relationships end up this way, I feel there is no possible way I could ever live with someone, or marry someone.