Okay, heres the deal, you're in love with an idiot. His current girlfriend is dealing with it, thank God its not you. You only love what you think you had with him, that spark, trust me, you probably would have poored water on that spark to put it out if you had a chance to finish the relationship. Thats why you are still thinking about him because you did not get to fully finish the relationship because of the baby and all. If you did see him, you probably would not even like him. I dated my ex after I left my husband who I thought was so perfect for me, turns out, I hated him-I just put him on a pedestal because I thought he was the greatest and never got to see that he sucked like all the rest. Sparks goes out, girls love bad boys it more fun, make yourself date someone who you totally would not date, the lame kind because they appreciate women so much better and you can boost their confidence so they swagg gets higher! and dress them. You'll be okay!

Do you think you are romanticizing him? Essentially he lied to you about being single and having a kid. There were real reasons you broke up. Its too easy to romanticize and brush over people's flaws. I think that you thinking about him that long only means that you've been thinking about him that long, not that you are made for each other.