Hi to all of you... I have been desperately seeking someone who really had this surgery because I did 2..
43..ended 1st marriage and wanted a fantastic make over to begin my new life...I was going to have the ultimate Mommy make over ...starting with all new parts...to make a very long and super romantic story short... I met and fell deeply in love with my friend who had been practically my best friend we seperated due to work and other life commitments never had anything beyond platonic but absolutely concrete friends when we met again the sex was as the kids say off the hook...we could never leave each other always late for work..the sexxxx was so good..and we were in love ...what a combination....
well pump my brakes.....I told him my plans for a makeover and he was flat out against it ...but i forged on...anyway.....thinking this would be me giving my new self to the person it should have always been anyway.... immediately after the surgery i felt different..
or should i say completely indifferent....i went from having spontaneous orgasms just thinking about sex every day all the time... to not one thought at all... nothing its like the sex light bulb went out...and was removed ... i felt like my brain completely forgot i ever had a vagina or a clitoris... we are talking a highly sexual extremely sensual woman...now feels like a castrated enuch...forgive me please.. i dont want to rain on anyones parade...I had always enjoyed sex partnered or alone...my fingers were sometimes my best friend.. after a long enduring seperation from my ex....but i was still having great singular and really big OOOOs...just by my lonessome....i WAS an extremely sensitive person... my new love said how much he loved my quivers.....well back to post-op story;...we waited 8 weeks...but the whole time i had no urges no fantasies no desires....nothing ....the whole time mynew love was anxious...it took many many many attempts for him to get through...and boy was he amazed...but he said something is missing and its what i am going tomiss the most.... there is no response from you honey....its like all my nerves shut down... no sensation anywhere....i could not tellhim this for fear of hurting him but it was obvious he thouth my love went away.... no waay...he is by far the most incredible lover i have ever had...and a for a year or so i had the best sex of my life....then,,,just like that after the surgery... i am a eunuch..i think thats how you spell it...mind you...and this is weird... i have more vagainal orgarms than ever....but i never ever feel the sensation of being horny...or turned on...or erogenous...its like the surgery robbed a lot nearly all my sensousness and i dont know where or how to find it ....when we make love i recall all the intensity of the pleasure i got from him doing this or doing that and when he touched me there how i would loose it ....he still does all those things...but it only plays in my memories...i am almost completely numb down there.... my doctor says its all hormonal....i was not in menopause i had regular periods....and all but this as excelerated menopausal symptoms and everything ....if i pleaseure myself i have an orgasm but the volume is way down.....its like my clitoris never swells and sorry to be so blatant ..but my beau is an oral GOD... but i feel completely numbe. the sensation is so low.. nothing happens anymore...ever..he called me a gusher ...it would swell and i would soak just from my thoughts...not anymore ....i dont know what to do .....