Conditioning Your Lovemaking Response

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Conditioning Your Lovemaking Response
Cultivating erotic safety starts with learning your own sexual response.

It always came back to the question of who wanted it. Sex, instead of a natural expression of love, had become baroque psychological warfare in Grace and Sam’s marriage, now edging into its second decade. Grace, tired from a shift working as an emergency room nurse, would come home, shower, light a candle and try to initiate sex. It was a priority for her. Sam would sometimes say no or more often, feel uncomfortable with what she suggested, although he would never admit that. She had always known she was more comfortable with her sexuality than he was, but this question of initiation and avoidance was driving small, sharp thoughts into her head: contemptuous thoughts about him and defensive thoughts about herself. Somehow, a mental tally sheet had formed and when she closed her eyes she recounted each time he had deflected her advances in the bedroom, bailed on driving the girls to soccer practice, or tuned out while she was stressing out loud about their mortgage. They lived side by side but she increasingly felt alienated and not just in the bedroom.

But in their lives the most disconcerting thing was the slackness she felt between them in bed. Where there was once a fire, or at least a burning ember of understanding, there seemed to be nothing but ash. The ground beneath her feet seemed to be giving way. The less they made eye contact in the bedroom, the more they danced around each other like strangers at the breakfast table. It seemed like this question of initiation was exposing a great rift between them. Why had sex become such a destructive tool of power in their relationship? Finally, it was clear to both Grace and Sam that something had to give, or their marriage was going to fall apart. They had to rebuild the fire or at least talk about their sexual lives together.

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Consider your own relationship to initiating and responding sexually. Are you more focused on keeping score than exploring and exposing your erotic self with your partner? How comfortable are you with your erotic self and eroticism in general? Can you or have you ever discussed your sexual fears or fantasies with your partner? What is the one thing you could tell yourself and share with your partner that would expand your ability to experience pleasure?

Feeling Practice: Agree to three 15-30 minute times where you are going to have a physical conversation with your partner. Borrowing from the popular children’s game, use no words except hot, warm and cold to direct your partner to the places you most enjoy being touched. Simply by turning communication into a game, you increase the suspense and anticipation of play. Be open to the pleasant surprises of the many unexplored erogenous zones you discover along the way. Take turns.

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Trust is the basic building block of human sexuality. Allowing the orgasmic reality of the body to take control can only happen when we can fully abandon ourselves to the moment at hand. The trust begins with the ability to witness your own desires and trust your erotic self to someone else. When we get lost in either having to prove or defend something about our own sexuality, it leaves little room to discover the magic of the mating ritual, as unique as it is universal. Cultivating erotic safety in your partnership allows the dance of sexuality to play out with the tension of the mysterious coming together and coming apart as the lead choreographer. Let your erotic self be the teacher, the guide, and the way to the momentary epiphanies that make us believe in the force of love as the guiding principle in the universe.

This article was originally published at . Reprinted with permission from the author.

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