I would say that I was definitely terrified that night, and for MANY years after that too. Simply terrified to NEED any other human being that much.
But that didn’t stop me from telling Paul every single day that I need him. That he is my air. And that everything in my world begins and ends with him!
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It’s only in the last few years that my “fear” of how much I need Paul has settled into a PEACE. And I can honestly say that my faith is what has brought me peace.
And now, my NEED for Paul, is one of the greatest feelings I have inside. It’s what brought me to tears after I wrote about that night a few paragraphs up. And it’s what propelled me to stand up, walk over to Paul’s desk and cry into his chest for 5 minutes, overwhelmed by my love for him.
Needing someone, loving someone to that depth, tapping into a level of vulnerability that brings up FEAR….that’s fully living!
Young Stacey, the “ice princess”, was standing on the outskirts of living. Watching Paul McCartney and thinking him a fool for such weak vulnerability.
Stacey today (notice I did not say OLD Stacey, and I’m not gonna) knows the truth. Sir Paul, my Paul and I are the strong ones. The ones who are willing to love to the depths of being terrified, to need someone to the level that they are like air to you…that takes a level of strength that I can’t describe to you.
Words have not yet been invented for the kind of strength that it takes to love that way.
So, if you love, but not to the level that SHAKES you to your core, you are standing on the outskirts. Listen to Sir Paul, he knows…she was the ONLY one who can really help him….he was right!
Live in AMAZEMENT…it’s the most beautiful, exciting, invigorating, life imaginable!!!!!
Sending love to you,
Stacey (the nice princess)
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