- Paul McCartney
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This song runs through my head all the time.
When I was a kid, this is one of those songs that I would hear and laugh to myself “artists, they are so weak…how stupid to let yourself feel that way about anybody!”
Fast forward to 2013.
I’m 41 years old. And I know with certainty that people think I am certifiably crazy when I say, with tears in my eyes, “I feel lucky just to be able to be this close in proximity to Paul Martino on a daily basis, let alone be the person he loves most in the world….that’s just too big to even comprehend…it’s mind blowing actually…and I still find it hard to grasp every day”
Young Stacey had a total breakdown when Paul tried to break up with her. As she sat there crying, saying to herself “what are you crying for? why do you even care?” she finally came face to face with a startling truth.
You can’t actually protect yourself from getting hurt by telling yourself you really don’t care and putting up walls.
It’s an illusion. You actually can’t protect yourself from the pain.
You can try to protect yourself from the SHAME. But you cannot protect yourself from the PAIN.
This was a terrible discovery and came at a really unfortunate moment for young Stacey, who sat there hysterical, surprised at her tears and sobs and PISSED to no end that all her “ice princess-ing” didn’t protect her from crap!
With nothing to lose, she looked at Paul and literally begged. She told him that what she is about to say is going to sound completely crazy, especially since he’s known her for 4 years.
She told him that she’s realized that she has feeling for him that she didn’t even know she had. She told him she had been playing half-assed trying to protect herself from this very moment, but guess what…it didn’t work.
Then Stacey, in the most vulnerable and raw moment of her life, said to Paul – If you are going to leave me, at least leave the real me. Please, give me a chance to show you who I really am, to play full-assed! And then if you truly don’t want this, I will let you go with love.
That conversation took 14 hours to have that night and Paul and I cried through the whole thing.
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So, when I hear Sir Paul (ironic) sing those lyrics today. I am SO amazed at the way Paul loves me all the time. I’m grateful EVERY day for the people we are today.
Am I afraid of the way I need him?