When love is mesmerizing, painful, enchanting and destructive, how do you climb up out of the muck to gain perspective? That's what I found myself asking right around the same time Rihanna was recovering in a hospital after the incident that labeled Chris Brown a "woman beater." Just as many who are in abusive relationships, Rihanna is still reeling from her toxic relationship with Chris Brown. Why Rihanna & Other Celebrities Love 'Bad Men'
Although it's been more than three years since the assault that landed her in the hospital, Rihanna sat teary-eyed on "Oprah's Next Chapter," telling Oprah that she still feels "protective" of Chris Brown. Crying over him, Rihanna admitted, "I still love him. He was my first love and I see that he loved me the same way. I truly love him," she asserted. That's right ... love, not loved, as in present tense.
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Many of us have been in unhealthy relationships far longer than we should have been. Sadly, it is too easy to fall back into the addiction you two share: each other. With that said, it seems that if there were any indications that she was in trouble or that her relationship with Chris Brown might have been toxic, it was probably her song, "Russian Roulette." 3 Reasons We're Angry About Rihanna Secretly Seeing Chris Brown
You can see my heart beating; you can see it through my chest; said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no; know that I must pass this test; so just pull the trigger …
Whether this song was spun out of amazing cacophony, or whether this was something truly personal she was experiencing at the time a real fear that she tasted while engulfed in her relationship with him, we may never know. Although many condemn the singer for her interactions with Chris Brown, I think it's important that she be allowed to grow and make her own mistakes.
At twenty-one years old, she wasn't perfect. Today, at twenty-four, the singer and actress still has much growing to do. However, she must tread cautiously with him. Chris Brown Allegedly Assaults Rihanna
Today, she and Chris Brown are 'friends." There is a part of her that has grown up and has moved on; yet there is another part of her that is dangerously drawn to him, her "first love."
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