Non-Mutual Divorce: I Do... I Don't
Micki McWade, LMSW
The chances of a husband and wife sitting at the breakfast table and one says "I want a divorce" and the other says "Okay, let's do it," are slim to none. Usually, one person will initiate and the other will resist. The degree of resistance ranges from letting go reluctantly to fighting it all the way.
The spouse debating divorce has thought about it for months or years -- long before the announcement is made. He or she has vacillated between going and staying: Should I... shouldn't I? I want to... I can't. We really can't afford it... I'll make it work. What about the kids? The kids will be okay. What about my vows?
Regardless of the current state of the marriage, this announcement often comes as a shock to the other spouse, even though he or she may have been thinking about separation as an option too. Rejection is hard and most people fight it initially. It feels like falling off a cliff. Stability shifts. We hold on to whatever we can to stop the fall.
The announcement may serve as a wake-up call for the resistant partner; he or she may press for another chance or for marriage counseling. The sad fact is that by the time a partner asks for a divorce, it's often -- but not always -- too late to save the marriage. The initiating partner has turned an emotional corner.
She may have wanted change for a long time but was refused. He may have warned her that he wasn't happy but she didn't pay attention. Eventually, when requests have been ignored for too long, the person wanting the change shuts down emotionally. The relationship has gradually eroded away, abraded by disappointment. He or she becomes discouraged and eventually gives up.
This erosion is particularly common in cases where there is an addiction or other major distraction. The offender uses their addiction or distraction to keep from thinking about what their partner is asking. The committed partner will do his or her best to keep the relationship going single-handedly for a while, but not indefinitely. A relationship can't survive without investment from both people. The committed partner eventually becomes drained.
No matter how hard the non-initiating partner tries to makes things better, the emotional connection has been broken. The break may be acutely painful for the initiating person but once she's come to this point, she doesn't have the emotional energy or the will to turn back. He may not trust the sudden change he sees. Why now? If you're doing it now, why didn't you do it before when I asked you to? Why did I have to come this far for you to take me seriously?