I am sad and angry
I am sad and angry
I am sad and angry
This week I am visiting my parents in Cincinnati, which I love. It
is my time to get fully taking care of with my mom feeding me, my
dad trying to solve all my problems. It is the best! As I always say, it
wasn’t always like this for me. In the past it felt like they expected
all kinds of stuff from me and the pressure would drive me crazy.
I now realized that it was all self inflicted pressure. Now, I can go
home and be with my parents the way it is intended to be. Me being
the child and them taking care of me. It is so powerful for them and me.
Also, this week I was talking to a close friend of mine. She, let’s
call her, Natalie, recently broke up with a boyfriend of several
years. He broke up with her. It has been heart wrenching for her.
As any break up, especially when you know you want to be with
the man, can be. She called me crying and saying she sent him,
let’s call him, Terrance, a text message that was vulnerable and
raw, and he didn’t respond. She went on to say, how she was angry,
that she had given him so much in their relationship and that this
is how he treats her. She felt disrespected and tossed to the side.
She said how could he do this to me, after everything we have
I said to her I totally get it, and you have every right to feel what
you are feeling because it is how you feel. And know that he is doing
this out of love. I know this because I have also spoken to him in
the past. He doesn’t want to keep leading you on when he is not
sure what he wants.
She got angry at me and said but I know we are supposed to be
together I can feel it in every part of my being and I feel like you
want me to accept that he isn’t coming back.
Now, this was interesting because I wasn’t saying that at all. I was
simply letting her know that how she translated the lack of response
to the text message wasn’t complete. I was adding to her translation.
So, I asked her what would you like me to say? She said I just want
you to hold the vision of him coming back and not send me into a
place where our love meant nothing.
She was emotional and I totally get it. I said to her, Nat, I am always
holding that vision. I am holding the vision that what you DESERVE
in love comes forth in its grandest most supportive loving way. And
if that is Terrance then I am all for it. I think he can be the one, and
if it isn’t that is okay too because it will be someone that gives you
what you need and want.
She calmed down immediately.
And something hit me in that moment. When we are going through
a break up, we talk to our friends and family about it. We cry and
we ask for guidance from them because it feels impossible.
They usually give us advice that makes us feel like they want
something different than we do. However, they are usually giving
us advice to see something differently than the current mindset we
are in. And we make a fatal mistake.
We ASSUME that they don’t care just like the man that the
relationship has ended with.
This stops us from letting anyone in to love us, when we desperately
need it, and we begin to feel EVEN MORE ALONE.
So, I ask of you. If you are currently going through something like
this or not because trust me many of you are doing this without
even going through a current break up.
CHOOSE TO assume that the people that love you are holding the
exact same vision you have for your life, which is for you to be
surrounded by people that love and take care of you.
Sometimes it is simply a choice.
Your Lovework for this week:
Who in your life is loving you and you are not letting them in?
It could be someone that calls you often and you barely call them
or that they are trying to make plans with you and you like them
but just haven’t made time for them. MAKE TIME. LET THEM IN.
If you are going through a breakup. Assume your family and friends want to
be there for you and want the best for you. Don’t shut them out.
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