I got frequent migraine headaches and had to close myself off in a darkened room. I was so depressed that I wanted to just sleep my life away hoping I would wake up and find that it was all just a bad dream. I dressed like an old woman and felt like one; my husband being 15 years older didn’t help that situation.
He wasn’t a person to talk much and we didn’t have much to talk about.
At 22 I had no skills and was barely able to read or write. Who would have me with two young sons? I asked myself. My life was in a state of confusion from every angle. Somewhere in that void I faced the fact of my life that I had no marriage.
I asked my husband to give me a letter stating that he gave me his permission to have sex with someone else.