Get Off the Perfection Merry-Go-Round

Get Off the Perfection Merry-Go-Round

Get Off the Perfection Merry-Go-Round

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Perfectionism can cause misery in your relationships. Free yourself from the fears at its roots now.

An hour before our family was coming for Thanksgiving dinner my husband, the perfectionist, disappeared. He ran to the store to buy matching folding chairs. At that time we were living in a house that had a huge kitchen but no dining room, hence no dining room set that included matching table and chairs.

I was fuming because I needed his help with other preparations. His need for things to look perfect was bugging me, (a former perfectionist). I went into the guest bathroom to admire the new wallpaper we had put up and make sure the guest soap and towels were in place.

Then I glanced down at the floor in horror. He had not replaced the molding along the bottom of the walls after hanging the wallpaper! There was only a gaping empty area. I was confused. How could such a world class perfectionist spend a couple of hours on a national holiday trying to find an open store that sold matching chairs but not care that the bathroom was incomplete and far from perfect? My formerly perfectionistic self would have mandated that both areas be faultless.

That is the puzzle about perfectionism. Each obsessive purist has his or her own rules about what must be without reproach. Apparently my husband’s did not include an unfinished bathroom. Maybe it’s because he is both a perfectionist and a procrastinator who often doesn’t finish projects. Not all procrastinators are perfectionists, but most perfectionists are procrastinators.

Since I was no longer a perfectionist, yes you can recover from it, I just shrugged and got on with my preparations. I consoled myself by remembering a client who had come to my home office and was impressed after using that bathroom. She shared that because it was imperfect, and it didn’t seem to bother me I had turned into her role model for moving past her upsetting perfectionism.

Perfectionists are driven by the nebulous fear, “I must be perfect or else …” They act as if they will be guillotined or drawn and quartered if they are not perfect. It was obvious to me that my husband’s behavior was motivated by the fear of what people will think, but which people?

At the end of the day, after everyone had gone, I cornered my husband and explained that I was puzzled by his behavior. “I can’t understand why you had to leave just before our guests arrived and drove around like a madman trying to buy matching chairs, yet you weren’t embarrassed by all the people who went to the unfinished bathroom today.”

I asked my husband what he was afraid would happen if the chairs didn’t match. Who would care? And what would happen if one of our guests cared? He explained that his mother used to try to put on airs to impress people since she didn’t think she was good enough. Therefore, things had to look "right".

I asked what his “or else…” was and he couldn’t come up with an answer except that it would displease his mother. “But she’s dead!” I screamed in frustration. “Was she perfect? When are you going to stop acting like a child and make your own decisions about what is right and wrong?” I demanded.

When I was growing up we lived in an apartment. I recall many happy holiday meals there. We would open a folding table in the living room and pull up any available chairs, even the piano bench. Nobody minded. They remembered the happy times and my mother’s wonderful cooking. My husband was influenced by his mother’s disapproval. I was influenced by my mother’s lack of worry about what people might think.

Who are the people who will think you deserve to be drummed out of the human race if you aren’t good enough? Are they perfect? Did God appoint certain people to be His representatives on earth to point and jeer or punish? What are the qualifications that make those people worthy of judging you?

Perfectionistic thinking is irrational. Break the chains of “or else…” thinking by asking yourself what you are afraid will happen if you aren’t perfect. Some of the negative decisions that plague perfectionists are: I am not good enough; I am unlovable; I am unacceptable; I am incompetent; I am wrong; I am stupid; It’s all my fault; There is something wrong with me; I’ll never do it right.

 Choose the one that makes you feel the most upset. Next, take a deep breath and let it out. Ask yourself this question, saying it out loud: How young was I when I made the decision that I am  _________ (say the negative belief)? Count to 5 and clap your hands. What number pops into your mind? 

Accept the first answer you get. Most likely you were quite young when you made up your mind that you were bad or inferior in some way. What memory comes to mind? Whose voice do you hear?

Put your hands over your heart and say: Even though I decided that I was ______(unlovable/stupid/clumsy/etc when I was ____years old and _____happened, and that led me to become a perfectionist, the truth is: Although it did happen, it is over now. I survived that awful experience. I am now a grownup in charge of my own life.

Therefore, I am now letting go of that memory along with my belief that I am ________! It is not the truth about me. The truth about me today is that I am _________ and it is OK to stop stressing myself to gain approval from others at the cost of my mental wellbeing.

Congratulations! You are now taking the first steps to leave your perfectionism behind you! Whenever you find yourself falling back into your self-defeating habits, you may want to call this wise advice to mind:

“What other people think about me is none of my business! It is only their opinion. It is not the Truth about me.”

 

Read my books, EFT for Procrastination and Grownup Love: Getting It and Keeping It, to find out more about overcoming procrastination and perfectionism.

Take advantage of a free phone consult with Gloria to discuss your problems with perfectionism.

 

Don’t forget to download a copy of Gloria’s FREE eBook, Creating Happiness.

This article was originally published at Gloria Arenson. Reprinted with permission from the author.
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