Sometimes we just don't feel loving toward someone. Yet we know that there is a loving action called for in the situation.
• You know that your partner wants to be celebrated on her birthday, but you don’t like buying gifts or putting on parties.
• You see that your partner is hurting and needing some comfort and compassion, but what you really want to do is relax in front of the TV.
• Your toddler gets up crying and the last thing you feel like doing is getting up to comfort him or her.
• Your partner is angry and blaming toward you, and you know that under the anger is pain and fear, but the last thing you feel like doing when he or she is angry is offering comfort and support.
What do you do? Do you take the loving action anyway, even if you don't feel loving? Isn't this being inauthentic and controlling?
No, and here's why.
The chances are that the reason you don't feel loving has to do with some fear or false belief from your ego wounded self, such as:
• Doing what my partner wants me to do makes me a wimp.
• I shouldn't have to give myself up.
• It is more important to not be controlled than to be loving.
• It is not loving to me to give in.
• I'm too tired. It's not loving to me to have to get up - again.
• It's not fair. I shouldn't be the one to have to do this.
• What about me? When is it my time to get taken care of?
• Why should I be kind when my partner is being mean? I will just end up getting taken advantage of.
• If I open my heart I will be weak and my partner will have the upper hand.
The problem is that what the ego wounded self believes is loving is entirely different than what the loving adult considers to be loving. When your wounded self is in charge, you have no way of knowing whether taking the action that someone wants you to take is loving or caretaking.
When your deepest desire is to be loving with yourself and others, then your loving adult self is in charge, which means that you are connected with your spiritual Guidance. If you are in doubt, you can easily check in with your Guidance and ask, "What is the loving action right now?"
There is nothing inauthentic and controlling about being loving with someone even when you don't feel loving, because your lack of loving feelings is coming from your wounded self. The wounded self never feels loving! When your intent is to be loving, even when you don't feel loving, offering comfort and support can actually create loving feelings within you.