What are you giving up because you're afraid to be alone?
Peggy had been married to James for 14 years when she first consulted with me for help with her relationship and her anxiety. "I can't stand being in this marriage anymore. We have two wonderful children and I don't want to break up this family, but I'm miserable and anxious much of the time. I feel like I'm always walking on eggshells and I can't be myself."
"What are you afraid would happen if you are yourself?" I asked. "I know it sounds crazy because a part of me wants out of this marriage, but I'm afraid that James would leave and I would be alone the rest of my life. I think that if I take care of myself and do what makes me happy, instead of taking care of his feelings and needs, he will leave. I'm afraid to find out that he really doesn't love me — that the only reason he is with me is because of how I take care of him. Are Monogamous Relationships Outdated?
If I stopped letting him dump his anxiety onto me and I stopped having sex when I don't feel turned on to him, he will leave. He gets furious at me when I say no to sex. I'm afraid to find out that he really doesn't care about my happiness at all — that he just wants me to take care of him." 5 Ways To Keep Married Sex Exciting
"Peggy, it sounds like you are telling yourself two things that are making you feel miserable and anxious. One is that if you don't take responsibility for James' feelings, he will leave you, and the other is that you will not be okay if he leaves you. Your misery and anxiety are your inner guidance system, letting you know that what you are telling yourself is not helpful to you. It is not in alignment with your highest good, and, quite possibly, it is not even true. So let's start with your belief that you will not be okay of James leaves ... are you sure this is true?"
"Actually, I know it isn't true. I love being alone, and financially there is enough money that I would be okay. And I know that James loves our children and would never abandon them." "So if you tell yourself that you will be fine if James leaves, then how do you feel?" "That feels good! I know that is the truth!"
"Okay, then if that is the truth, what do you have to lose by being yourself?" "I'm scared to death to find out that James doesn't really love me. I guess it's not about being alone after all, but about not being loved."
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This article was originally published at Inner Bonding . Reprinted with permission from the author.