Vanessa, 30 years old, is struggling with whether or not to end her six-year marriage. The answer is not at all clear to her.
Vanessa and Jon have a "good" marriage. They are kind and caring with each other. They enjoy many of the same things. So why is Vanessa in such turmoil over whether to stay or leave?
The problem is that Vanessa is very lonely with Jon. They are good friends, but they are not emotionally intimate. Jon has no desire to share any of his feelings with Vanessa, nor does he have any desire to understand Vanessa's feelings. He is content to keep everything on the surface, while Vanessa wants a deeper emotional connection.
Since they have many good things in their marriage, Vanessa has decided to try marriage counseling, and Jon has agreed. Counseling or not, there is only one thing that can save this marriage - Jon and Vanessa shifting out of their intent to protect against pain and into an intent to learn about what is loving to themselves and each other.
Jon's intent has always been to protect against pain rather than to learn about being loving to himself and others. He has done this by numbing out his feelings with marijuana and work. Jon's choice – whether to continue to protect against pain, or to begin to open to learning from his feelings - will determine the outcome of the counseling.
Vanessa, too, has operated with the intent to protect against pain. She has ignored her own feelings and been a "good" wife, submerging her own needs, to comply with what Jon wanted. But at some point, she shifted her intent to learning about what is loving to herself, and now she realizes she cannot continue in an emotionally disconnected marriage.
The issues in your relationship may be about emotional distance, lack of passion, sexual problems, constant fighting, emotional abuse (if there is physical abuse, then you must find a way to leave), parenting issues, or being used financially. There may be control and resistance occurring around many different issues. Yet the underlying issue is a lack of open and caring communication. And open communication only occurs when both people have a deep intention to learn about their feelings, fears, limiting beliefs and resulting unloving behavior. If one or both people in a relationship are closed to learning about themselves and each other, the relationship will not heal.
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This article was originally published at Inner Bonding
. Reprinted with permission from the author.