A member of our website asked this question in our advice section:
“I've read several of the articles on the site, but have not seen anything mentioned about "chasing" after someone who is pulling away in a relationship. That has to be a form of protection against deeper feelings, though, right? If someone is pulling away and the urge to chase after them comes up, what is the best thing to do in this situation? Thanks!”
I know exactly what this woman is going through, as I used to go through the same thing. When a man I felt connected to would withdraw, shut down, or pull away in any way, I would feel a sense of panic. In my panic, I would convince myself that by being a certain way - attractive enough, sexy enough, nice enough, right enough, or convincing enough - I could get him to reconnect with me.
Now I know that the panic over another disconnecting from me was coming from my own disconnection from myself.
I used to disconnect from myself right at the beginning of a relationship, making his feelings more important than my own. I would put my own feelings - my inner child - in a closet, and instead take care of his inner child. My hope was that if he felt loved enough by me, he would take my inner child out of the closet and love her. I was abandoning myself by caretaking him, hoping to get the love from him that I had no idea how to give to myself.
The question asked is: What is the best thing to do in this situation?
The Best Thing to Do
The best thing is to let go and take loving care of yourself. But this is easier said than done.
There are a number of things I had to learn before I could do the best thing for myself:
- I had to accept that I had no control over how he felt about me, no matter how much I chased him, or how wonderful I tried to be. I recently read this on another site (http://stepperswisdom.blogspot.com/):
Codependent's Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change,
the courage to change the one I can,
and the wisdom to know it's me.