Examining and healing your patterns of self-abandonment will do way more for you in getting over a breakup than cutting your hair! How did you abandon yourself in the relationship, you ask? Self-abandonment occurs when it becomes more important to you to have control over your partner than to be loving to yourself. Read through the following list to see ways you may engage in self-abandonment.
I abandoned myself and tried to control my partner by:
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• Giving myself up to my partner, going along with what he or she wanted—having sex when I didn't want to, spending time in ways I didn't want to, saying yes when I meant no—hoping that if I was loving enough and pleasing enough, he or she would love me.
• Letting myself be controlled and dominated, rather than speaking up for myself and risking conflict and rejection.
• Making my partner responsible for my feelings, and for my sense of safety and self-worth. My partner felt smothered and withdrew.
• Being very demanding—sexually, financially and/or emotionally—demanding time, approval, sex and/or things.
• Being judgmental of my partner, to get him/her to change and be the way I wanted them to be.
• Being judgmental of myself, to get myself to do things ‘right' so that my partner would love me.
• Being very reactive, easily getting angry and blaming others.
• Shutting down and withdrawing, rather than dealing with things.
• Constantly explaining and defending myself to try to get my partner to see things my way.
• Being resistant. It became more important to me to not be controlled by my partner than it was to be loving to myself and him/her.
• Lying and/or withholding the truth, to avoid disapproval and conflict.
• Dominating the conversations: talking incessantly about myself and not listening to or being interested in my partner.
• Turning to various addictions—alcohol, drugs, TV, work and so on—to shut out my partner and my own feelings, rather than taking responsibility for myself.
• Always trying to get love from my partner—in some of the above ways—rather than learning to be loving to myself and share my love with my partner.
Self-abandonment always creates internal and relationship unhappiness. Your relationship will inevitably decline when your intent is to control your partner rather than love yourself and your partner. The Way to True Love is Through Self Love
Loving yourself through externals such as new clothes and a new hair style is great, but learning to really love yourself—by taking responsibility for your own feelings of worth and safety—is what will make you feel wonderful. You will recover fully from the breakup and avoid repeating the problems in your next relationship. This can only happen when you learn to love yourself rather than abandon yourself!
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