Divorce Horror Stories We Tell Ourselves

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Divorce Horror Stories We Tell Ourselves
Are you worrying yourself needlessly with tales of divorce woe?

Since it's the season for scary stuff, I thought I'd tell you a couple of divorce horror stories I told myself when I was getting divorced. The first story is the everyday story. The second is the special event story.

I'll start with the everyday story.

I started telling myself various versions of this story shortly after my ex-husband and I separated in March of 2002.

My fears were large! They invaded almost every facet of my life. I was afraid of living alone. I was afraid of not being able to support myself. I was afraid that I'd get sick from eating food that had gone bad. I was afraid of getting fat. I was afraid of getting old. I was afraid of losing my job. I was afraid of just about everything.

I'm guessing you get the picture. It's what I used to do with each of these fears that made up the everyday story.

Here's one version of the story: I'm afraid of getting fat. If I get fat, then no one will ever want to date me. If no one ever wants to date me, then I'll never get remarried. If I never get remarried, then I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. If I'm alone for the rest of my life, I'll be living alone forever (which amped up the scary factor). If I'm living alone forever, then what would happen if I lost my job? If I lost my job then I wouldn't be able to pay my bills. If I can't pay my bills, then I'll lose my house and have to live on the street. If I had to live on the street then I wouldn't survive long and I'd die a horrible death.

Are you getting the idea of my everyday story? I was convinced that if any one of my fears came true then I wouldn't survive long and I was going to die a horrible death. I'll admit, I was a bit dramatic with my everyday stories, but it was all part of the deep, dark belief I had that since I was getting divorced I needed to be punished and punished horribly.

Those were just the everyday stories, here's my special event divorce horror story:

Shortly before my divorce was finalized, some friends from graduate school invited me to join them in Spain. Although I was in desperate need of a vacation, it took some convincing before I finally agreed to join them in Spain for a week. Initially, I needed convincing because I was afraid of spending the money just in case I lost my job (yes, that does mean that I started telling myself the everyday story).

As the day for departure approached, I was happily anticipating and dreading it at the same time. I started telling myself that I was a horrible person because I was getting divorced and that I deserved to die. The closer the day for departure loomed, the more convinced I was that I was probably going to die in a plane crash because I didn't deserve to have fun. I made myself miserable and a nervous wreck. All of the fun I could have had anticipating the vacation I turned into torment and torture.

As you already know, my horror story didn't come true. I didn't die in a horrible plane crash. I even managed to have some fun in Spain and on the way home I was too tired to worry about whether or not the plane crashed.

So what's the point of me telling you my stories? Well, what I've found over the years is that many people dealing with divorce torture themselves with their own horror stories. I've heard horror stories about never being happy again. I've heard horror stories about never being financially well off again. I've heard divorce horror stories about children never loving their parents again. I've even heard horror stories similar to my own.

In case you're telling yourself divorce horror stories, I want you to know two things. First, you're not alone; many people tell themselves horror stories when they're dealing with divorce. Second, it's O.K. to tell someone who won't judge you, about your stories and have them help you create a better story—a story that inspires you and makes you happy to be you.

Your Functional Divorce Assignment:

Identify the divorce horror stories you're telling yourself. What are the stories you're telling yourself about your future? Anything that doesn't inspire happiness and positive anticipation of the future just might be a horror story.

Stop torturing yourself and reach out for help in rewriting your story. If you're ready to change the story you're telling yourself into one with a happy ending, schedule a Complimentary Consultation with me. We'll discuss how coaching can help you more quickly and completely work through your divorce and rewrite your story with a happy ending.

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This article was originally published at The Funcational Divorce . Reprinted with permission.
Article contributed by

Dr Karen Finn

Divorce Coach

Dr. Karen Finn is a divorce coach and the owner of The Functional Divorce. She works with people through all the different life changes divorce creates so they can get to living the best of their lives.

She is the author of On the Road from Heartbreak to Happiness daily messages to help you help yourself heal from divorce.

Dr. Karen is happy to give you "The 5 Things You MUST Know About Your Divorce". In it you'll get the information you need to be prepared for how your divorce will change your life.

 

 

Location: Ovilla, TX
Credentials: PhD
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