You don't have to be Scrooge to hate Christmas. In A Christmas Carol we learn that Ebenezer Scrooge used to be a nice boy who became bitter through parental neglect and brittle by his emotional dependence on his sister, who abandoned him by dying. Poor guy. He was the sad product of a dysfunctional family.
If we're honest we can acknowledge that the holiday season, while full of love and warmth for many of us, can also be a time when our family's dysfunction rises up to bite us in the ass. No family is perfect, but some are downright toxic. Once you are honest with yourself and can say, "Yes, as much as I love them, my family is screwed up," you can begin to make plans to cope. 10 Ways To Have A Loving Holiday Season
For those whose homecoming means serious stress, I hope these suggestions help:
1. Give yourself permission to have an escape route. Limit your exposure so that it's not open ended. If you really must have dinner with the family, make plans to go somewhere you can breathe easier for dessert. Have a Plan B "just in case." It's not only a good idea, it's smart.
2. Don't rely on alcohol to ease the pain. You do not want to be uninhibited when there is even one person in the room who can hit all your buttons with one emotional taser blast.
3. See the humor wherever and whenever you can. It's okay to roll your eyes as much as you want with your eyes closed. But avoid sarcasm. Sarcasm usually is not humor. It's barely disguised anger.
4. Use the buddy system. Have a confidant close by or on speed dial. Text a friend, cousin, sister, anyone who "gets it." She may need your help to get through the holiday as much as you need hers.
5. Resist the urge to confront those who hurt you in the past. Now is not the time. Trust me.
6. Having said that, if you are directly disrespected or abused in any way while the family is gathered, think "strategic retreat." This is like a time-out for grown-ups. You could quietly say, "Please don't speak to me that way," excuse yourself and leave. Take the dog for a walk around the block, go to your favorite cafe for a decaf latte, listen to soothing music on your iPod, recite your affirmations, feed the ducks in the park and have a good cry. Give yourself 10-30 minutes to find your balance, then rejoin the group. If the abuse persists, give yourself permission to leave quietly but completely.
7. Breathe. When we are in pain we have a tendency to hold our breath. We aren't even aware of it. Take a moment to breathe out, to signal relaxation to your body and mind. Then breathe in, filling your lungs to capacity (like a big yawn). This allows your frontal lobes to stay engaged and reasonable; much better than letting raging emotions tell you what to do.