It fascinates me to see how we all dance in relationship in similar ways. Aspects of every love story break-up or dysfunction can be recognized in our own lives.
I have experienced my heart shutting down when a man in my life behaves like the little boy, needy for love, or the bad little boy, guilty and afraid that he will not be loved. Yes, it can be a turn off, but closing my own heart will only create a separation between us. While he is feeling his wound from childhood, he is looking for approval or love. When we shut down, we become his mother who is disappointed and denying him love in that moment.
Can we choose to not judge him and allow him the opportunity to remember who he is? He needs to take care of himself, feel his own love inside, instead of waiting for someone else or us to fix him and make it better. Connecting to our open heart creates a wonderful reflection. When he is not connected to his self-worth, I try hard to remember who he is because in the moment he doesn't.
I have found myself feeling my needy or bad little girl at times, when a man disregarded me and triggered negative emotions. I felt unloved or not good enough and this lie of self-doubt would create an unsafeness with him.
When a woman finds herself in this place she might want the man to fix her or take care of her. Her lack of self-worth might be triggered because she feels his disappointment or anger. This behavior is a turn-off to men and they may shut down or emotionally leave. There may not be a safe place for truth, intimacy or making love. The little girl inside is looking for her father’s love. Most men get tired of fathering their partners. In some cases a man might enjoy this role because it makes him feel good, or he enjoys the power that control gives him. This is also unattractive and a turn-off in any relationship. Instead of abandoning his partner emotionally, he could create a safe place for her to feel her fears. The woman must make it clear that she is not his mother when he asks for emotional support. The man is not her father. While she is vulnerable and in fear, respect and honor is what all women deserve.
Can we all connect to truth and celebrate safe love betwee us all. When we are triggered, can we breathe deeply and not see them as our mother or father, instead, use the experience to hold the emotions triggered and don't abandon ourselves. Breathing will keep us connected to the present and the fear or unloving feeling will slowly dessolve.
The Inner Workout: A Visualization Meditation for the Inner Relationship
Connect with your inner child …
be the loving parent to him/her.
Connect with your full heart …
feel your extraordinary SELF.
Visualize your bridge…this safe, beautiful place in nature. Get comfortable as you breathe deeply, connecting with the emotions triggered in the moment.
See your little girl/boy (you when you were young) on the bridge with you.
Create a safe place for your child to feel … unloved … disappointment … fear … anger … resentment … jealousy … lack … not good enough … whatever the feelings, allow them to be embraced by knowing they are there … feel the discomfort.
Hold your child … take care of him/her.
Talk to your partner on the bridge and express all of your feelings. Tell them how you feel and use your them to talk about it … here on the bridge.
Cut the emotional cord and re-connect with your own love. Hold your child and feel the love and support…the protection. Be the love …
Look into your partner’s eyes, or into the eyes of the one you are uncomfortable with, and feel your own open heart … feel your strength and self-worth.
Use each uncomfortable experiece with any relationship to heal your past. When triggered, this emotional ignition acts as a window to your childhood and connects you to the same feelings you felt as a child. Once you acknowledge this truth stay with the feelings that are rising up.....don't leave, just breathe. Say to yourself I am here.
It's not up to anyone to take care of you or fix you. It is exhausting to take care or control others for love. The time has come to take responsibility for your emotional well being. Support, nurcher and love yourself so that no one else takes over.
YOU ARE NOT MY MOTHER OR FATHER....
I AM NOT YOUR MOTHER OR FATHER....