Dance on the Beach of Life!
Sometimes in our lives we reach rock bottom. We experience what we call hell. For each of us it's dressed up differently, but for all of us it is dark, tough and devastating. This hell can be our awakening. Some people call it a break-down; I believe it is a break-through.
This was the sequence of my hell over three months.
* My financial security was gone
This is what I felt...
Fear, anger, loneliness, blame...lack of self-worth. Who was I? I was a terrible mother, I was an undesirable woman, I was a failure...I was broken...It was like falling off a bridge into darkness...Falling out of my mind, losing everything and hating myself.
I went into the closet in my room. I closed the door...curled up in a ball in the corner and wept...I cried from the depths of my being for hours.
Finally, I surrendered...I chose to live...differently!
I decided not to believe in fear any longer because I realized I had created all my fears. Fear stops everything - It can be our disease. I now see how these events changed me. My barriers were all being shattered. From this place in hell, I started to rebuild my own foundation, my belief, my faith. I faced all my greatest fears...I became humble. I stopped wearing my old behaviors.
I then started my journey back to self, to my heart. I began to remember who I really was. I gave myself permission to be healthy in every part of my life...My mind, my body, my spirit.
I found a way to move away the negativity that lived in my mind and shut down my heart. I created a formula to keep me inside...to feel the pain and created an inner support system that I practice daily.
* First I visualized a bridge in nature where I felt safe.
* I then connected with me as a child and my heart opened to the love.
* Once I felt safe, I did an Inner Workout using the people and experiences that triggered feelings such as resentment, anger, hurt or lack.
* Here I confronted the truth of my feelings and released them.
* When I let go, I re-connected to my compassionate heart and forgave them as I felt my own love and peace within.
When I started to connect to my emotionally body and release my negative feelings a deep connection to self-love and self-worth created a healing space for my physical body. I was living differently, and my new perception shifted me...that was the miracle. My children, family and friends felt the peace in me. My open heart created safety for all of my relationships. I became truly happy! Many years has passed and I have become healthier in every part of me and my life.