Actions speak louder than words, but the words are SO loud.
I'm switching gears now that the shock of the election is over.
A lot of my friends are still upset and angry, and some of them are tapping out of the news altogether because they are so hurt and dumbfounded by the results.
But no amount of hurt feelings is going to change the fact that Donald Trump is our next president.
That's not how feelings work.
As nice as it can feel to wallow in misery in your bedroom with a pint of ice cream watching Vanderpump Rules (you guys, I can't even with this new season), feeling hurt about president-elect Donald Trump, that kind of behavior is not going to affect any real change at all.
I am just now rallying, weighing my options, and trying to figure out what I can do moving forward to be a better ear to the rest of the country, and to be a better advocate for people who are suffering.
As a woman in her reproductive years on a fixed income, Barack Obama's Affordable Care Act made it possible for me to get annual gynecological exams for free, and no-cost access to the birth control I need to keep me from becoming the much-decried "baby-murderer" or "welfare succubus" advertised by some members of the conservative right.
Donald Trump has said loud, proud, and often that the first thing he is going to do when he is made president in January is repeal and replace Affordable Care with "something great."
If he does this, myself and countless other people like me, are going to be put in a hard position. Birth control is going to become very hard to access while Donald Trump and his fellows come up with a plan that is more than a vague noun and a positive adjective.
Right now, I don't have insurance because I cannot afford it.
Because of this, I have come to rely on the services of Planned Parenthood when it comes to dealing with my health and my body.
Planned Parenthood is already under attack, and I do have serious concerns that if this continues under Donald Trump's administration I will be S.O.L. when it comes to getting access to the care and prescriptions that I need.
There are many, many other women in this boat. A lot of them have talked about getting an IUD before Obama leaves office, which is definitely an option.
But I'm still sort of in riotous disbelief that I could be losing this aspect of control over my body at all.
All I can do right now to assuage my anxiety is try to believe that Donald Trump's actions in office will be different than the words he used to get himself elected into office. I don't think that's entirely impossible, but I'm not 100% optimistic right now, either.
For now, other than hope, I think the most valuable thing every woman out there can do is continue this dialog and write to their senators and congressmembers about their concerns.
We can't just sit back on the internet and be morose!
To continue honoring the memories of the women who fought and died for us to have our voice in government, we need to be active participants in the process, even when that process doesn't go our way.