When your favorite actor is unable to seduce you because an off-screen man stole your heart away ... you know you are in deep deep trouble. So I finally caved and went in for some serious healing in New York.
Taking a cue from the late singer Marvin Gaye I admitted my need for some healing of my own. Then I went out and got the remedies. No, I did not visit one of those shops, rather it was time to get more serious about my Tantra yoga practice and bring a certain issue to a BodyTalk session. In simple terms, I took the specific situation that triggered all this Bonie Tyler-style heartache, to Shelley Poovey's BodyAttune Wellness in New York City.
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Previously, I had addressed the emotional cascade of all my feelings in BodyTalk sessions by the themes and belief systems associated with issues that bothered me. Whatever my emotions presented I choose to deal with as symptoms of negative thought clusters. I never directly brought up the incident as its very own malady.
The macro-level approach took me a long way but didn't give me a home run. Clearly, in the end, the actual event was calling for healing. My extended heart pain epoch for four consecutive seasons made that obvious. Shelley took the bull by the horns and tackled the beast of my burden to the ground.
What happened in the session felt like a deep dive into the abyss of my subconcious and delved into the 8th chakra where soul contracts resided. The core themes in my 8th chakra were sexuality, safety, separation of love and sex, and self-punishing self-sabotage in love relationships.
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Shelley and I had two sessions. In between the first and second I had the most delightful dream that I moved to London, married Michael Fassbender, and convinced him to play James Bond. Sexual and relationship healing had begun.The symbolism of the dream was very interesting to me. The man I had loved like a fool in real life was the Captain America soulmate a famous psychic had predicted to me more than once in my life. It was the psychic who described Captain America as a kind of American James Bond type.
When I was first introduced to BodyTalk through Heather Strang she had a program called the Romance Matrix. During our BodyTalk sessions on romance , Heather had said that Michael Fassbender was the template for my ideal man. Not so much the actor but what he represented to me with all that I project onto his image. So to dream of my ideal as my soulmate and stepping in 007 shoes for a role was a subconscious message telling me things were improving in my love life. Paradoxically, the actor himself still didn't have any seduction prowess for me. Before my second session with Shelley, Captain America could still light my fire.