Also, I want you to really get this. You are not broken. You do not need fixing. What you need is relief. Not Healing, but relief. It's not about what you do that's important. What's important is how you feel while you're doing it. Feeling good = higher vibration.
After taking in all of Tamara's mentoring on raising my vibration to a state that resonated with matching me to true love, I knew it was major vision board time. Love in 90 Days happens when vision and intention match. So with Photoshop I went wild with creating images to get me to that feel good state.
Heather Strang had told me in many BodyTalk sessions that I had a soul purpose of partnerships. She could see it but I could not. Vision board it was. I grabbed my best selfies and images of my favorite actors and created faux couple pictures of them and I. Eventually it came down to blending my image with either Michael Fassbender or Colin Farrell. The jury is out on which fake couple looks better: Michael and Me or Colin and I. Still deciding.
The point of the homework was for me to be able to see myself in a partnership. So having an external picture helped. What emerged was the contrast of emotions that the two couple versions of myself triggered in me. When I looked at Michael and me it felt exciting as if I were with an international man of mystery. Then when I glanced at Colin and I there was a burst of Philophobia (fear of falling in love) that erupted. Colin and the man who broke my heart could pass for identical twins. People told him that all the time.
Finally, I was able to label it correctly what exactly was going on. Terror at the thought of falling hard and fast again. One year of love that wasn't was bad enough. Never again. There was no way I was going to be singing One More Day With You beyond September 27, 2013. This A-HA made the final miracle possible, however, when I finally decided to bring the actual incident into a BodyTalk session with Shelly Poovey.