Even though you love your partner and can't imagine life without him, the thought of taking things even further can be seriously frightenining. It's not that you don't want to be with him, it's just that promising to commit to someone forever is a step that you just aren't ready to take. Don't worry; you're definitely not alone in feeling this way. Not wanting to get married doesn't make you a terrible person.
Hearing international counselor Sheryl Paul talk about this makes us feel that much better. She goes on to say that "proposal anxiety is a very common experience." In fact, she thinks people need to realize that "relationship anxiety can begin at any point and usually hits when the level of commitment is increased.” Getting engaged is a huge step, so it’s no wonder you find yourself getting worked up about it. Getting nervous before making this step is a natural part of life. All of the biggest decisions in life come with a certain amount of anxiety. Many people will tell you that being nervous about getting engaged means that you are having doubts about your relationship. Do not listen to them because you and only know what's going on in your relationship. So only you can tell whether or not you're ready to take the next step forward.