Despite everything, the singer tells Oprah that she still thinks fondly of her ex-boyfriend.
It seems Rihanna is willing to forgive even the worst offenders.
Last night on Oprah's Next Chapter, the 24-year-old pop singer sat down with the interviewer-extraordinaire and got pretty candid, opening up to Oprah about some of her most personal and heart-wrenching moments over the past few years.
According to Us Weekly, Rihanna admitted that she never stopped caring about her ex-boyfriend Chris Brown, despite the fact that he was arrested for physically abusing her in 2009. While talking to Oprah, she got tearful recalling the incident and said that she and Brown are currently "working" on rebuilding their friendship.
Rihanna also mentioned that they are not a couple (despite what tabloids may have you thinking), but she still loves him. She says that when they bump into each other, "It's awkward because I still love him. My stomach drops and I have to maintain this poker face and not let it get to the outer part of me. I have to maintain that and suppress it." A-List Links: Rihanna Says Chris Brown Scandal "Was Humiliating"
"I think he was the love of my life," she continues. "He was my first love and I see that he loved me the same way. I truly love him. The main thing for me is he's at peace. I'm not at peace if he's not happy or he's still lonely. I care. It actually matters that he finds that peace."
Rihanna had more to say about their tumultuous relationship: "We were very young and very spontaneous. We were falling in love and going at a really rapid pace," she explained. "We forgot about ourselves as individuals." Hmm... sounds like the lyrics to a very famous song of hers, no?
While some dissenters think she's too quick to forgive, Rihanna thinks otherwise and explains it wasn't an easy decision. "I have to move on," she says. "I have forgiven him. It took me a long time. I was angry for a long time."
The singer adds, "I can't tell people how to feel about it. They're entitled to feel angry because it wasn't a good thing that happened. But I have forgiven him."
Rihanna concluded her conversation with Oprah by saying, "All kinds of emotions started happening after that. All kinds of things started making sense. I thought I hated Chris and I realized it was love that was tarnished. It looked like hate because it was ugly, it was angry, it was inflamed, it was tainted and I realized that what it was is, I have to forgive him, because I cared about him still. And the minute I let go of that, I started living again."
Rihanna seems to be handling her difficult and emotional situation with rational-minded clarity and aplomb. Go Rihanna.
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