its a waiting game to see if he bites on my bait...
So the nice, not-too-young man I remet this weekend, is either not interested or an expert at pacing himself. What I'm sure I couldn't take yesterday seems like an unattainable goal today. Though our weekend was spent steeped in honesty about past episodes we missed in each other's serial dramas, what I want to tell him is that I could totally take him for who he is, not what he's done or what he thinks I want. Like I explained to him...I've done the hard stuff, I just want someone to share it with, sounds corny but I'm at a loss for words. I would really love to know what he is thinking, or even if he is thinking. Is the repackaging I've spent the last year on going to make me a more appealing selection? I would really like that. A chance to finally be the girl that gets to go home to mother, though the alternative was never dull, I guess we gals always want what we can't have huh? Maybe thats what he is thinking...lol!
On a final note, and I do mean final. It was one year ago today that the shit hit the fan and I was dropped like the hot mess I am-er-was-er whatever. Because of new nice guy I really haven't given much thought to what was, which is good and was a promise he made before my weekend trip. I asked him if he could make me forget my name and that happened too...at least temporarily.
I'll keep posting if there is progress, and I hope there is...there is some excellent self therapy going on here.
Wish me luck?