It's hard.

Hello. My name is Jamie-lee Enderson, I am 15 years old (16 in July) and I live in a little town called Witham in England. I'm currently sitting my GCSE's at my school and at the moment I feel like everything is caving in on me. Not only have I got to concentrate so much on getting my GCSE's, my auntie is in hospital with terminal cancer, my uncle had a car accident the other day, and I'm starting to feel a little unloved. You always hear girls crying about how their life is so messed up and ruined for life, when really, their life isn't half as bad as mine. Right now, I would love to be sitting with the boy I love (and yes, I do mean love! I'm not the type of girl that flings the word "love" around for the sake of it, when I say it, I mean it), he's only 15 too, and I'm around about a month older than him. But things can never be ok between us, I like thinking that it will be, but everyone else tells me that it wont. I've always believed the quote "if it's meant to be, then it will happen", well i've been waiting since August, and nothing has happened yet. I speak to this boy every single day, and we are both madly in love with eachother, but if anything was ever to happen, then it would become a 'long distance relationship' as I live in Witham and he lives in London. Some people that have partners across oceans etc... probably don't think this is very far, but for my age it will be hard for me to cope with. I'm not legally allowed to work and that means no money. No money means no travel. No travel means no boy. No boy means no happy. Some of you believe that if your as young as I am, then I shouldn't even understand what love is, how it works, what it does etc... But I have a mum, a dad, and plenty of other members of the family that can tell me all about it. Although they live with their lovers, their stories still partly refer to mine. Everything's just getting so hard at the moment, and I just feel like I need to speak to someone that knows what i'm going through, as no-one in my family has never really been in a long distance relationship before, so it's hard for them to respond correctly when i'm crying. I just don't know how to handle it anymore, please, all I ask for is help.
Thank you for reading,
The innocent 15 year old.
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